Wolf Bound

Chapter 17

-Clare-

The next day, I had to avoid Jason, while trying to act like I was not purposely avoiding him, which is nearly impossible!

But at noon, I could not take it anymore, I went right into the office to find him working on the plan.... Again.

"Hey, uh, can I talk to you?" I asked as I sat down in one of the chairs facing the desk.

Nervously, I looked up at Jason, he looked up at me and raised an eyebrow.

"What's up?" he asked.

"It's about your brother..." I mumbled.

"Matthew... what about him? Has he spoken to you?" he asked suddenly.

"Have you?" I asked quickly.

"Last night, he came by and spoke to me... did he talk to you, too?" he asked half curious, half worried.

"Well, kind of... yeah."

"When?" he pressed.

"Yesterday, we uh, well... me, Matthew, and... Drake kind of all ran into each other in the woods. Matthew must have made Drake worried or something, cause Drake never tried to make any move to attack, they kind of talked, till Drake left, but... then Matthew talked, too." I explained rather speedily.

"Clare, what did he say?"

"He offered to make a deal to gather information and then help me... us, with the plan," I said, fidgeting with my hands, as I looked anywhere, but into his eyes.

"You told him, you'd talk to me, right?... or at least tell me you said no," he said sort of... worried and... frustrated?

I hesitated, before meeting his eyes.

"I sort of said... Yes." I squeaked. I looked at Jason as he stood behind the desk in the office, he looked really upset.

"You did what I specifically told you not to do." He said, as his jaw clenched.

"To protect you... us... this pack, our family! Jason, it was the only way to stop us from losing more than we already will!" I said quietly.

"That wasn't your call to make!" he snapped.

My heart broke when he yelled at me.

"You weren't supposed to be the one making deals like that!... Not when you don't know anything about my brother!" he growled.

Even though part of me wanted to back down and just apologize, I did not, I stood straight and looked straight into his eyes.

"An Alpha does what they have to do, in order to protect their pack! That's what I'm doing!" I said coldly.

"You haven't been turned long enough to know how dangerous it for an outsider to help a pack... especially if the outsider is Matthew, he's not sane, Clare! All he cares about is power and destroying what good I have in my life. You making deals with him is just making it easier for him!" Jason said harshly.

I scowled and stepped up to the desk and crossed my arms over my chest.

"So, your scared?! Because your brother and I made a deal, one that will help us stop Natalie from destroying everything my parents.... And you have built?!" I scoffed.

"I'm not scared," he growled lowly at me.

"Jason, you're not some big bad alpha, you are still the same guy that you were before you were turned... and if you don't start trusting me, then why would we stay together if we can't trust each other?" I said, it hurt to say it, but I had to say it.

"Clare-..." he started, but I stopped him.

"Either start treating me like your equal or leave... it's still my house." I said coldly, before turning and leaving him there shocked and hurt in the office.

When I shut the door to the office behind me, I saw my parents and Nick and Meagan all looking at me shocked and worried.

I clenched my jaw and Meagan looked either ready to punch me or cry. When she stood up and walked right up to me, I stiffened, waiting for her to punch me.

"I want to so badly to hurt you for saying that to my brother, I really do want to hate you right now... but... I can't." she said her voice shaking. She than simply left with Nick in tow.

I raced up to my room and shut the door and locked it.

Before I could even take a step, I sank to the floor and cried, I had just threatened to break the bond that made me and Jason mates, but it wasn't just that, it was the fact the one guy that didn't make me feel like some weird teenager, the one guy I could see myself living with for the rest of my life... had just admitted to not trusting me.

It was dark out by the time I had gotten off the floor and walked over to my bed and laid down on it.

Tears started to race down my face again by the time, I pulled the covers over myself. I did not know whether to scream from the pain of my heart breaking or run-down stairs and tell him I was sorry, even though I was still trying to figure out why I wanted to apologize.

I fell asleep, crying... which is not at all a nice way to fall asleep.