Khuṇ chxb p̄hū̂chāy? (U Like Men?)

Birthday present?

⚠️ Sensitive content ahead!⚠️

It was morning and Thanya was already in my room. She brought some medicine and said she wanted to help arrange for Gulf's flight since I was still in a bad shape. She's concerned of me!

" I'll escort him as well. Don't bother!" She assured me.

" I really wanted to see him off but I'm afraid seeing him leave will make me suffer even more. I'm already suffering with the fact he's no longer comfortable around me." I explained.

" I understand phi... "

" Where's everyone by the way? "

" Sam is in the room, same to Gulf. P'Ann left yesterday and Mai said she had to take care of something at work"

I sighed. I can't believe Gulf he's leaving me in this condition, geez!

" Tell Sam to help u escort Gulf. U guys be careful on the way. Keep me updated and wish Gulf a safe journey"

Thanya nodded with a smile then left.

I didn't want to see Gulf leave. I wanted him to stay but it seems he's not ready to listen. I'll give it time before I fly back to Thailand to see him! Not only seeing him but engaging him completely b'se I'll be tired waiting for him. I wanna marry him this month.

I heard the car movements and I refrain myself from going outside. I don't want to see him leave. I'm afraid I'll keep him in my suitcase and ran away with him. He'll hate me for it!

I locked myself in the room for the whole day, regretting why I didn't try hard enough to convince Gulf to stay. Maybe he could've changed his mind!

-- -- -- --

(Knock knock)

I sat up quickly. My heart is throbbing

(Knock knock)

"G-gulf.... Is that you?"

"It's Thanya!"

I breathed out heavily. My poor heart

She walked in with a bright smile.

" You miss Gulf that much, don't u?"

" I wanted to make sure he's gone!"

"Stop acting tough, will you? "

"Why are u here Thanya?"

" I'm taking u out. U've been inside ur room like a mattress or something!"

I smiled recalling Gulf calling me a mattress months ago. I miss his voice

"P'Mew? U're spacing out!"

"Going out sounds great. By the way, I'm feeling much better now. Thanks"

"It's okay phi. I wanna make sure u're not lonely. Please cheer up for me!"

" Anything for my nong..."

I seriously wanna take my mind off this b'se I've been reminiscing abt Gulf my entire day and now I feel headache!

-- -- -- --

We're out and the chauffeur drove carefully. Thanya was busy chatting

" Greet Sam for me!" I teased.

" P'Mew! We're just friends!"

" I know... But I trust the process!"

" P'MEW!" Thanya scolded me. I'm making fun and now she's blushing!

"Where are we going by the way?"

" It's a special surprise for my phi!"

I sighed. She's trying hard to cheer me but I can't shake the fact that I won't be seeing Gulf for I don't know how long. It's just a day has pass but it feels like it's been a year since I last saw him. His effect on me! I hope I learn to survive it