'I don't want it
And I don't want to want you
But in my dreams I seem to be more honest
And I must admit, you've been in quite a few
Halley's Comet
Comes around more than I do
But you're all it takes for me to break a promise
Silly me to fall in lov...
Halley's pov I wake between them and smile remembering last night. Billys voice rings out "stop doin that" I turn and ask "what?" "Lookin surprised we're still here" he tells me stroking my cheek. I look into his icy blue eyes and say "I've never had someone stay before" stroking his curls out of his face "now we're not goin anywhere comet. You're kinda stuck with us"
Smiling. I grin and he asks "you hurt?" I shake my head and a hand moves up my torso and Eddie mutters "good. Woulda hated if you were in pain princess" I smile "mornin Eddie" eventually we get up and shower and fool around more. I dress in
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Billy comes and puts his denim jacket on me and kisses my temple "you're gonna get cold later comet" I smile at him and we head to school. Everyone stares and I fidget with my boys rings on their fingers. Uncomfortable by the looks and whispers. Billy glares and pulls me closer to his side. I go in my locker just to be met by balloons. What? I put them inside and Eddie grabs one "it's your birthday today princess?" Billy says "why didn't you tell us? We wouldn't be here in school if we knew" I sigh "with everything going on I forgot it was even coming up." Eddie smiles "happy birthday baby" and my parents are gone. Though they never come home for anything for me. But come home for Steve for...everything.
I send him a smile and billy asks "what's wrong?" It's my 18th birthday and I've never once got a party or even a cake. Or a call. This year was hell for me. The only good to come from it is billy and Eddie. "Nothing" I say. I don't even know who put these balloons in my locker. They don't have a note attached or anything. "Princess we can't help if you don't talk to us" Eddie tells me. I sigh "just thinking about this year and the hell I went through and that the only good to come from it is you two. I'm thinking about the fact that the reasons I'm even alive to begin with want nothing to do with me and hate me more than they usually do now. I've never had a good birthday. Not really. Jim made them as special as he could and I'm grateful for him. It'd just....18 is an important year and I'm just reminded that my existence isn't wanted by the people that should love me the most"
It's not a secret they never wanted twins. I taught myself how to bake and I'd sit alone at the house and bake myself a cupcake and blow out a candle as a kid. While Steve got cool birthday parties wherever he wanted to go, while I cried myself to sleep. I never exactly ever made any friends. My parental neglect is why I tend to think negatively about myself and that anyone I get close to will end up leaving. They always do so what's going to stop anyone else. Emerson didn't make it any better for me.
Even when I was with him I was alone on my birthday. Billy says "your existence is a gift comet. You are a gift. I never thought I'd find someone who cares about me the way you do. I'm so fuckin happy you exist baby. If they can't see you for the amazing, talented, beautiful, smart girl you are and appreciate you and be here to celebrate you they don't fuckin deserve you" Eddie pipes up "we're gonna make this the best birthday you've ever had princess. Promise" billy asks "wanna get outta here?" I shake my head "I've already missed a lot with what's happened. I can't afford to miss more and neither can you two" and with that we head to class
