For Eternity (Zamasu x Black fem Reader x Goku Black)

The Conversation

When Lord Beerus, Whis, and Gowasu came down for a visit, you didn't know what to expect apart from more food being consumed. You were partially correct, but the other means for their visit was something you weren't exactly able to know about.

It had you feeling suspicious, but you knew that you couldn't assume it was something bad. Especially when Gowasu wanted to speak with Zamasu alone and in a more secluded area, away from the Briefs Compound.

It's not like you could be smothering Zamasu with what could be described as a helicopter hawk, acting in such a way was just not something you'd stoop to. Gowasu was his master, and as Gowasu's apprentice, they were expected to share time together. You couldn't know everything about the lives and conversations of Kais.

"What? You dare to make delicious chocolate squares and not bother to save any for the God of Destruction?" Beerus growls out in annoyance at you, making you huff in anger. "If you had said you were coming to visit, I would have saved you some. You can't be mad at me for that!"

Before it could start escalating, Whis smiles at you. "If it wouldn't be such a bother, could you perhaps whip up another batch? We would both love to try some of these rather rich sounding confectioners."

You give a small exasperated sigh, resting your hands on your hips and nodding. "Alright, but it'll be about thirty minutes before they're done. So you'll have to be patient."

"You're making more? Yippee!!" Goku says happily, and you pout at him. "You guys had plenty already, so none for you." Immediately he looks crestfallen, giving you big puppy dog eyes. "Pleeeeeaaasse? I promise not to step into the kitchen until they're done!"

You rub your temples softly, sighing heavily. "Fine, but no more after that." Grinning, Goku grabs you and spins you around like you just told him the most exciting news. "You're the best!!"

"W-Whatever, go distract yourself with a fight or something!" "You bet! Hey Vegeta, wanna go one on one?! I won't beat you too bad!" Goku asks while setting you back down on your feet.

"As if you can beat me that easily, Kakarot!" You shake your head softly, going to head into the kitchen to make more brownies.

*****

"Why do you all seem to be in a silent agreement on continuing to let Y/N suffer with a forced memory relapse?" Zamasu asks Gowasu calmly, despite being anything but that. The two Kais were standing atop one of the large rock formations of the wasteland nearby, overlooking the entire area.

Gowasu doesn't look at Zamasu as he's asked this, a gentle sigh escaping his lips. "I apologize, but it is out of my hands on this matter. I can only help Y/N get better control of her emotions, if she has decided to train back in our world."

Zamasu's eyes narrow as Gowasu lightly skips over the question, gripping his clasped hands tighter behind his back. "Is it so bad for her to have her memories brought back? Is it because of the different timeline, the future that used to be inevitable to dodge? My memories came back quite easily, so why is it that she must continue to suffer through the nightmares that disturb her sleep? The pain that causes her to hesitate on living peacefully?"

Gowasu looks at his student, feeling sympathetic more than angry. "Zamasu, I understand that you care deeply for Y/N, but.... She is still a goddess, and Lord Zeno's sister. Her memories will come back, but the price as to having her remember everything so suddenly will not be calm. I am disappointed in you, the past and future you, that decided to end my life to achieve your goals. But I forgive you. It was my own fault for not guiding you down the correct path in those instances... However, your narcissistic anger also had you killing an innocent man and his family, one that Y/N has gotten to know for an entire decade in this timeline."

Zamasu feels as if he's been winded by this realization, lowering his head a bit.

That was right. He had taken over Goku's body, and killed the Saiyan that occupied his own in that instant. And then he killed that woman and the young child just because.

Now that he's gotten to know them, he was in disbelief at himself for doing such a sinful thing.

But it would be your reaction to him, to find out that he had done more than just hurt Goku, that would be like causing an incursion. Especially with your nightmares.

How would you feel knowing this, and then knowing that you also partook in killing mortals for a justified utopia now that you've got personal history with them?

Not to mention the... Rather perverse things you did with him and the other Zamasu in the same instance.

Zamasu felt a rather huge amount of selfishness at that.

And then he felt a sense of dread settle into the pit of his stomach. What if you stopped loving him from having the truth revealed to you?

What if you hated him?

As desperately as he wanted to keep that from happening, he knew better than to act like the others and keep you even further from your memories than you already were.

Sighing slowly, he looked back towards the direction of the compound, feeling the energy spikes of both full-blooded Saiyans fighting.

"She deserves nothing but pure honesty. If she wishes to end everything with me, then I will accept it and continue on my path as becoming the next supreme Kai."

Alone.

But that word felt foreign to him now.

Without you, that felt even worse.

But, he still had a duty to uphold at the end of it all.

Gowasu watched Zamasu closely, seeing the slight dulling of his grey eyes at the thought of never seeing you again.

******

After everything has calmed down after today's events, you find yourself laying with Zamasu outside. You were both in a little hidden area, a large blanket spread out underneath both of your frames as you stare up at the night sky. Something was bothering him, but he wasn't telling you what it was exactly.

His shuffling grabs your attention, and you turn on your side to face him, to see what he's doing. Blinking as he has your music player in hand, you smile a bit at the fact that he might have actually been enjoying songs on there without your knowledge.

Turning on his side to face you, Zamasu hands you one of the headphones. You don't question him as you put the piece in your ear, staring up into his eyes. He doesn't look away as he hits play, his forehead gently touching yours as the song starts.

It's Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol, and your eyes widen a bit before softening. He picked this song for a reason, and you listen to the lyrics with him. He grabs your free hand gently, holding it close to his chest where his heart is. You scoot closer to him, running your thumb over the back of his hand.

Something was about to happen, but for now, you were going to forget the world with him.

(Song belongs to snow patrol)