When Will It Be My Turn?

chapter 4

nakauwi na kami, lumabas siya agad ng kotse at hindi ako tinuunan ng pansin. I don't know what's with her.

she's acting strange and rude.

nang makapasok ako sa bahay hindi ko inaasahan na maabutan siyang nakatayo sa sala, akala ko umakyat na siya, hinihintay ba niya 'ko?

hindi na ako nag assume, baka sabihin naman niya feelingera ako. nilagpasan ko siya at nagpatuloy sa paglalakad papunta sa hagdan.

natigilan ako nang bigla siyang magsalita.

"Ignoring me huh?"

what? Ignoring her? e siya itong hindi manlang ako kinibo kanina.

I looked at her confused, itinuon ko ang atensyon ko sakanya habang sinusuri siya. ano bang nangyari sakanya kanina nang iwan niya 'ko sa punyetang gathering na 'yon mag isa?

why does she even invite me kung iiwan niya rin ako, and if she's just gonna introduce me as her secretary.

I know I don't have the right to complain about this, I know that. I just can't help but to be hurt when she denies me like that. I don't even have the right to be hurt like this because in the first place I'm the one who caused this. I'm the one who brings this pain in myself by staying with her.

I don't have the right to complain.

"What do you mean ignoring you?" I finally got the courage to ask her.

she stared at me intently, as she chuckled unbelievably.

"really? you're asking like you're not even aware at what you did Celine" she then maintained a serious look as if she didn't just laugh a few seconds ago.

I just stared at her confused, I don't know what she's talking about. if she's upset right now hell I don't know why because as far as I know, I should be the one who is supposed to be upset not her.

"Ano bang problema mo?" Irita kong turan. I can't control my emotions any longer.

naiinis ako, how dare her put that shit on me when I didn't even do anything. hell, I'm so irritable when my tummy is empty. tapos sasabay pa siya ngayon. I'm so damn hungry to the point I want to kill someone.

wrong timing siya, sa pag uugali niya sa'kin ngayon.

She raised her eye brows at me, looking at me with disbelief.

"What's gotten into you, and you dare to talk back at me?" She bark, she look like an angry potato right now.

fuck I'm so hungry that I even imagine her as a potato while she's angry.

I just stared at her without holding any emotions in my eyes, the only thing that's on my mind right now is how hungry I am. I can't care any less about what's her deal right now.

I want to eat I want to eat I want to eat I want to eat I want to eat I want to eat I want to eat

kaya kong kumain ng isang buong manok at kalahating kanin sa rice cooker, that's how hungry I am, my desserts are not included in that, I still have space for them.

when she's done barking, I spoke.

"Are you done?" I also don't know what's gotten into me but all I know is that I'm so damn starving.

she didn't say anything, she just stood there staring at me deeply, it feels like she's killing me in her gaze. I just knock that feeling off at nagpatuloy sa paghakbang paakyat.

I'm tired and starving like hell.

"Don't you dare take another step, Mrs Rossen."

natigilan ako sa narinig.