When Will It Be My Turn?

chapter 5

It's been what? mhm 3 days? ah nah, a week. yeah, a week since that happened and since then hindi na kami nagkikita. I'm actually avoiding her, halos 2 days din akong hindi kumain nun wag ko lang siyang maabutan. I locked myself in my room, sinubukan niya akong kausapin nung gabi na 'yon pero hindi na ako sumagot and it led to her thinking na nakatulog na 'ko, sinubukan niya rin akong kausapin kinabukasan pero ayoko talaga siyang makita.

and eventually she got the signs that I was avoiding her kaya tumigil na siya.

tuwing madaling araw ako lumalabas ng kwarto para talaga siguradong tulog na siya, kumukuha lang ako ng tubig o di kaya biscuits o kung ano mang pwede ng kainin. so technically isang buong linggo na rin akong walang maayos na kain.

I'm not complaining though, ginusto ko naman yun e. ginusto kong iwasan siya. and in that one week hindi naman naging boring ang buhay ko kahit nasa kwarto lang ako buong magdamag.

I was talking to Isabel, she accompanied me the whole week, and I'm so thankful for her for that. I'm not gonna lie, in that one week napagaan niya ang loob ko, I told her that I was going through some shits, and I'm loving someone I'm not supposed to love because they're already loving someone. I thought she was gonna judge me and all but she didn't, in fact she didn't say a thing and just listened to me. and I appreciate it.

lagi niya akong pinapatawa at dinidistract the whole week, because of her I kinda feel that someone understands me.

and now, gustuhin ko man o hindi pero kailangan kong lumabas ngayong araw, currently it's 12:18 pm in the afternoon at 1pm ang meet up namin ni Isabel for that I'll make it up with her thing. honestly nung nakaraan pa dapat 'to pero hindi pa ako ready makita siya, kaya sabi ko kay Isabel next week nalang at ngayon 'yon.

I don't know what's with her to say that I should stay away from Isabel, but either way I won't. In that one week Isabel helped me a lot, and I appreciate it, and I am a woman of my words.

I will make it up with her.

wala na rin siya ng gantong oras dahil maaga siya laging umaalis bago pa mangyari 'yon kaya hindi ko talaga siya inaasahan na makita ngayon sa sala.

she's now sitting on the couch while sipping her coffee and reading something on her laptop.

I tried to act all cool ng mapatingin siya sa direksyon ko, nginitian ko nalang ito ng bahagya at dumiretsyo sa kusina para kumuha ng maiinom.

Isabel told me na susunduin nalang niya 'ko kaya pumayag na rin ako para less hassle sa pagcommute kasi sinabi ko sakanya na baka malate ako ng konti kasi magccommute pa 'ko, kaya ayun nag presinta siya na sunduin ako. binigay ko sakanya ang address ko at ngayon hinihintay ko nalang siya pumunta dito.

maya maya pa ay nag text na sa'kin si Isabel na malapit na siya kaya naman naglakad na 'ko palabas ng bahay pero bago pa 'ko makalabas ay bigla siyang nagsalita.

"Where are you going?" Tanong nito na ngayon ay nakatingin sa'kin.

nilingon ko siya at pinasadan ng bahagyang ngiti, just to keep our atmosphere little less awkward. I want to forget everything that happened that night. ayoko nang alalalhanin pa.

"Just meeting with someone" sagot ko rito.

she just nodded, and I take that as a cue to leave.

nang makalabas na 'ko ay ang saktong pagdating naman ni Isabel, she's driving a Cadillac CT5-V Blackening. kulay green ito. ibinaba niya ang bintana ng kotse saka kumaway sa'kin, bumaba siya sa kotse niya at binati ako.

"Hi there little one" nakangiti nitong sambit sabay yakap sa'kin na agad ko rin naman ibinalik.

I miss being hugged. I really miss it.