When Will It Be My Turn?

chapter 11

after we were done talking at the coffee shop, napag-desisyonan naming umuwi na, nag presinta siya na ihatid ako pauwi at tumango nalang ako pabalik.

I still can't get over to what she said to me earlier in the coffee shop.

I didn't think someone like her experienced something that fucked up.

she lost the only person that made her feel those romantic feelings, the person who made her know what love is. the world is just so cruel for them. the night where her girl said yes to her, after months of courting is the same night where she lost her.

from the moment that girl's parents learned about the relationship they have, they booked a flight abroad para ilayo si Isabel sa anak nila.

kaya kinabukan nung gabi na sinagot siya ay ang pag alis din ng pinaka-mamahal niya.

hindi niya nagawang sundan ang girlfriend niya dahil minor palang siya ng mga panahon na 'yon. same reason why she hates her father til this day. humingi kasi siya ng tulong sa mga magulang niya para makapuntang abroad, tutulungan dapat siya ng mama niya pero nang malaman ng papa niya na babae ang kasintahan niya ay hindi siya nito pinayagan sundan ang babaeng mahal niya.

her father did everything just so she won't be able to leave abroad.

she's only 16 that day, and she waited two years para maging legal age at makalipad papuntang ibang bansa, but before she even get to fly in the country where her girl is living, she found out that her girl commited suicide days before her birthday.

she asked the people she sent with her mother's help abroad, but they all said that they didn't know, at mukhang itinago talaga ng pamilya ng kasintahan niya sa publiko ang nangyari.

it didn't take long, and she learned na namatay ang dalaga. ayun ang ibinalita sakanya ng mga taong pinapunta niya para bantayan ang babaeng mahal niya.

hindi na niya tinuloy ang pag punta ng ibang bansa dahil wala siyang lakas para makitang wala ng buhay ang babaeng pinaka-mamahal niya.

that's why til this day on, she despises her father.

"Thank you" I thanked Isabel, as she opened the car door for me.

I didn't realise that we're already here, I must have zoned out for so long.

"No worries" She smiled as if she didn't just cry few minutes ago.

She's too genuine and deserving for this world, I just hope that one day she'll be able to move on and find someone who will love her as what she deserves.

"Don't ignore me again, and answer my texts, I won't be here to look out for you" pag-papaalala nito as she pat my head.

oh yeah, she also told me the reason why she asked me to meet up with her.

she's going to paris for some work related issues, she's gonna be gone for atleast two months or maybe more. mamayang madaling araw din ang flight niya.

remembering that she will be gone for quite long made me wanna hug her, I'll be alone again.

I heard her chuckle a little as she she hugged me back.

"Oh look, someone is going to miss me" she said cockily that made me roll my eyes at her.

sobrang hangin, but she's not lying tho.

even tho we just met and we barely know each other, she already helped me a lot. And I'm grateful for everything.

"I will" I said as I hugged her tight.

this will be my last hug for months again.

"I will miss you too, little one" she kissed my forehead as she bid her last goodbye to me.

she reminds me of my sister because of that undermeant, my older sister always calls me little one and little sis. God I miss her so much.

I waved my hand at her as she go, nang hindi ko na makita ang sasakyan niya ay agad na 'kong pumasok sa loob ng bahay.

naabutan kong nakaupo sa couch si Azari habang may binabasang magazine, suot suot nito ang salamin niya na ginagamit niya lang sa trabaho o kapag may binabasa ito.

hindi ko alam na nakauwi na pala siya.

ang aga naman masyado?

5pm palang kasi, kaya medyo maliwanag pa sa labas. 10-11 pm din ang usual na uwi niya kaya nakakapag takang makita siya sa bahay ng gantong oras.

"You're home early tonight" sambit ko, just gonna try and make a conversation with her.

"What? you're not expecting to see me tonight mhmm?" inilapag nito ang magazine na binabasa niya saka niya 'ko tinignan ng mariin.

what's her deal? I'm just saying na maaga siya ngayon. 

"No, I'm just surprised to see you home early than usual"

"And why? you don't want me knowing you're out there hugging and having a date with someone?" she stated that made me look at her questionly.

did she saw me and Isabel in the coffee shop earlier?

"What do you mean?" I asked, wanting to confirm my guess.

"Oh there you go again with what do you mean question" she amusedly said, as she stood up and smile at me in disbelief.

"Tell me why, why of all people that you're gonna seduce and flirt with, it has to be my business competitor?" she asked, sarcasm is visible in her voice.

the way she said competitor is just different, I feel like she means more, other than Isabel being her business competitor. or maybe I'm just overthinking it.

I didn't realise she was already in front of me, and I was taken back at her sudden appearance. I stepped back, but she just walked closer to me, and before I even got to step back again, she held me in my waist not allowing me to go anywhere.

"Don't you think it's a little suspicious?" She whispered in my ear that sent shivers down to my body.

I gulped, I can't get my self to speak, my body feels weird right now. I don't know why the fuck I feel turned on while she's here right now cornering me.

I can feel her hot breath in my neck, and I feel something weird in my body every time she speaks. hindi ko na naintindihan ang iba niyang sinabi. wala akong maintindihan. I'm so focused on the feeling she's giving me, it's like tickling my body. it's torture and pleasurable at the same time.

and in just like a snap her emotions changed, binitawan niya 'ko at tinignan ako ng deretsyo, her playful stares changed into a serious one. even her tone changed.

and that made me badly nervous. my smoking feeling earlier changed into being scared of what might happen, I feel like I just woke up to a dream.

"I already warned you, didn't I?" she stated while looking at me furiously.

"And I didn't just warned you, once. but twice Celine." lumapit ito sa'kin habang bakas sa boses niya ang galit at inis.

"Is that how itchy you are to be fucked?" she then started using her mean and off limits words again.

and just like every time, it didn't fail to make me more miserable than I am.

"No, I don't even want to feel that" I answered bravely, covering up the miserable feeling. I looked at her emotionless, hiding the fact that I was hurt with her words.

"And you expect me to believe that?" She laughed amusedly, like she just heard a really wonderful joke.

"I don't, and I don't care if you don't" I declare.

her emotions changed faster than how my family abandoned me.

"You already reached my limit Celine, you really pushed your luck huh?" She stated in gritted teeth.

"Not because my parents are in favour of you, means they can stop me from what I can do to you, from this day on, I'm gonna make you regret being alive."

"You will regret ruining my life"