When Will It Be My Turn?

chapter 32

It's been a month ever since that happened. And it's been a month ever since she started courting me, why? Well, she just simply say that after confessing to me so I don't know too.

                                  FLASHBACK

"W-what?" I asked dumbfoundly. I stared at her shocked, unable to comprehend what she is saying.

"I like you, Celine." She repeated herself, but turned away. Is she shy?

I can see her cheeks being tinted pink lightly as she avoided my eyes.

I found myself smiling ear to ear as I found her adorable. She looked so cute.

"I can't hear you." I lied, hiding my smile as I stared at her. I want to hear it again and confirm if I'm not hallucinating.

"Oh come on! I know you heard me." She whined as she looked at me pouting. Oh god, she looks so adorable.

I smiled while I shaked my head no. "No, I didn't." I denied.

"Fine." She said defeatedly as she looked at me straight in eye, she didn't said anything just yet, she just stared at me while losing herself in her own world. And I will lie if I say staring at her eyes right now doesn't make me hypnotized.

I was about to cut the silence but then she spoke up before I even get to open my mouth.

"I like you, Celi. I want to be your girl. I don't know where I started to feel these things for you but all I know right now is I want to win you over. I want to make up with all the things I did to you before, I want to do my responsibility as your wife. I want to court you, can I?" I was left there speechless, just looking at her with so many emotions in my eyes.

I feel so happy, I feel like I'm in a cloud nine. my heart is jumping, I feel so incredibly happy that I feel afraid and scared. Scared that she might've just misunderstand her feelings and she really didn't like me. Maybe she's just scared that I will do it again that why she's being kind or maybe this is part of her revenge on me. Making me love her even more til I collapse in her hand. Making me lose myself as she have me at her mercy.

I'm happy yet I feel scared. I don't know who I should listen to, who I should follow. Will it be my heart who's been loving her for years, admiring her from afar, crying everytime I see her with someone else and now that she's here infront of me, confessing to me. Should I grab that chance?

Or should I listen to my mind who keeps screaming at me right now that I should run and go and leave her alone and protect myself from breaking again. That I should stick on my plan and not let myself fall into this heavenly trap. That I should choose myself this time. And not let this person break my walls.

But how can I leave her when I know what's the feeling of being left alone? When I know the feeling of being abandoned.

I didn't notice I fazed out not til I felt her hand caressing my cheeks as her eyes didn't leave mine.

"I know you have lots of doubts right now and all I need from you is a chance. Please let me court you, Celine."

I looked at her hesitantly, my hands slightly shaking from nervousness. I avoided her eyes and I opened mouth to speak but she cut me off again.

I am getting a little annoyed at her cutting me off every single time.

"I changed my mind." She said that made my heart dropped. I looked down at my lap as thousands of emotions got through me especially she didn't say anything after that.

I knew it. I knew she was just confused and was gotten by her emotions. I know for a fact that she will now get to love me as much as I love her.

"I don't want your permission anymore, I will court you starting today, Celine." She announced that made me look up at her confused.

                               END OF FLASHBACK

And now, it's been a month every since that day. And it actually feels surreal.

Azari started going back to her company ever since I started to get a little bit better. She keeps sending me some weird messages every now and then, Updating me on what she do and what she ate and how she's doing. Also calling me everytime na gusto niyang marinig ang boses ko. (she calls me every 30minutes) She sure is weird.

She also have her own way of courting, getting to kiss me on my cheeks everytime, saying it's part of her courting me since she needs some strength.

Getting so touchy and cuddly with me everytime she comes home from work and I will lie if I said I don't want those physical connection with her. I love her warmth around me.

My thoughts were cut off when I heard the door main door opened, revealing the girl I was just thinking seconds ago.

"Hi darling" She called cutely, tiredness is visible in her voice. She plumped down next to me in the couch as she put her car keys in the coffee table.

Did I mention that she's been calling me some pet names ever since she started courting me?

"Hey.. do you want something?" I asked the girl softy as I let her rest her head in my chest as she cuddled me.

"No, I just want you." She hugged me tight making her head buried more into my chest. I don't know if this is her being clingy or her being a pervert.

I pushed her head a little and she whined.

"You're getting too comfortable." I said as I eyed her. Still holding her head in my hand pushing her lightly away from my chest.

"Who wouldn't? You feel so soft and you smell so good." She said as she hide her head into my neck, smelling my scent and it feels ticklish. My hands made her way to her shoulders, trying my all best to push her away.

It's not that my neck is my weakness, I just really can't handle it.

(that's a lie)

"Azari.." I called, almost sounding like a whimper. I felt her hot breathe in my neck that brings shiver down to my spine.

"mnhm?" I felt her kiss my neck as I found myself melting to her touch. I feel like all energy I have in my body is slowly getting sucked out of me.

fuck, why do I feel turned on.

"A-Azari.." I called again and she moved away from my neck and looked at me innocently.

fuck this girl.

"Yeah?" She asked still staring at me innocently as her arms are around me, holding me.

I felt my whole face being hot, I bet I look so red right now.

"G-get of me, I'd prepare us some dinner" I stuttered as my hands didn't let her shoulders, gripping tightly but not that hard that it will hurt her.

To my surprise she obligied and got off me.

I stood up almost too quickly, I was about to walk away when she pulled me into her making me fall into her lap, she held me strongly, snaking her arms in my waist.

"W-what are you doing?" I asked nervously, I don't know why my body's acting this way. fuck.

"I miss you already." She pouted her lips as she hugged me tightly.

"Can you stay here for a little while more?" She said and I can feel her tiredness in her voice and just like a snap all my horniness disappeared.

I left her lap and sat next to her and hugged her letting her head rest into my chest again, just like our first position. I felt her calmed down under me and few minutes passed, I saw her eyes closed.

She fell asleep.

I saw myself admiring the girl under me. she looks peaceful, her lips are looking so kissable. And as much as I want to kiss her, I decided not to and just enjoy the scene of her sleeping next to me.

I hope everything will stay like this.