Big lies - Miguel O'Hara fan fic

Chapter 9

Y/n POV
The same day
I just walked out his office well that was just pretty tense...
I just sat back in my desk just taking a deep breath did I really just did that...
Did I really just fucked up big time....
I just put my head down....
I am so stupid for doing this I just grabbed my bag just going back to my apartment as I step out the building it was just pouring rain..
You have to be kidding me... can this day get any worse.
I just didn't care at this point that I just walked my way to the subway just getting all soaked
As I arrived to my apartment I just took of my coat and put my keys down the counter... I just took a very warm shower.. after coming out the shower I just put on a t shirt and some sweatpants I just made myself some warm tea and just sat down in the living room just watching tv
I just lay my head down just looking at the rain drops..
I just zoned out that I didn't hear the doorbell
I just groan I just wanted to relax and not even think about what happened today..
I just got up just opening the door just seeing Miguel standing there
" what do you want?" I said
" I just want to talk" he said
" I don't think there's anything to talk about" I said
" I just wanted to apologize for being a dick towards you" he said
" it's fine I guess" I said
" let's just please not talk about the whole thing" I said
" yeah" he said
" let's just pretend nothing even happened" I said
" yeah I don't recall why I even came here" he said
As I just softly chuckled well that was random
" do you want to come in for a cup of tea?" I asked
" sure" he said as he went inside
" nice apartment" he said
" thanks" I said as he sat down in the couch as I pour him a cup of tea and gave it to him
" thanks" he said
As I just sat down just feeling this tension between us....
" maybe let's just not focus on things that happen like you kissing me and the whole thing that happen today" I said
" maybe let's just start over" I said
" that will be good" he said
" yeah.." I said
After a hour of us talking
I just see his watch glowing....
" what's that?" I asked
As he just hid it
" is nothing" he said
" is not that important" he said
"Okay.." I said as I stood up just trying to take my and his cup but he just helped me and wash them
" thanks" I said
" your welcome" he said
As I just dry my hand as he was just fixing the cups in the cabinet
As we finished I just stood there just turning off the stove as Miguel just stood there
" thanks for the help.." I said looking at him
" anytime" he said
As I just gave him a smile
As we just looked at each other just hearing are heartbeats just feeling this small tension.....
Was I making the right decision? Maybe not..
I just felt myself lean in as he did the same.....but his watch kept beeping...as he just sighed....
" I have to go..." he said
" oh..." I said as he just got his coat...
" I see you tomorrow then..." he said.
" yeah I see you tomorrow" I said
" yeah.." he said
" bye" he said
" bye.." I said closing the door
As I just lean on the door  and whined
But why was I whining I don't even like the guy.... or maybe I do..... I just took a deep breath as I was going to go to my room but heard a small knock...
I just unlocked the door and opening it as Miguel just grabbed me tightly just kissing me...I just pulled away just looking at him shocked I just looked at him and didn't care I just kissed him back as he picked me up as I just wrap my legs around as he just carry me to my room
He just place me down as he was just kissing me patiently... and let's just say that night was just something very unexpected.......