The Heartbreak Prince Sebastian Sallow

Chapter 28: I'm not sorry

Present day - Alora POV

"I'm glad you came." he said taking a few steps closer to me.

"Me too. I'm surprised though I beat you here. Normally... you are pretty prompt for the most part." I smiled.

He chuckled slightly. "Surprisingly enough the prefects held me up, I had to hide in a broom closet for a few minutes while they changed shifts."

He motioned to me to the couches on the right-hand side of us. Only having to walk barely a foot or two before sitting down gently. Sebastian taking a slow seat on the opposite side. Our eyes meeting again as the fire flickered around our faces.

"At least it wasn't Peeves this time. That damn clown is beyond irritating sometimes."

"Yeah, damn poltergeist has tried getting me on numerous occasions of detention."

I chuckled. "I remembered when he caught us that one time in the restricted section."

"Ah yes, that I do remember. That was some fun back then."' he said. His focus turning to his hands as he slowly tapped on the table with his fingers.

"Yeah it was, wasn't it. We really did, if you think about it, quite a bit of reckless things back then, going after goblins, fighting spiders-"

"Fighting trolls." Sebastian interjected as we both laughed. I breathed deeply feeling my cheeks heat up. Not knowing if it was just coming from the fireplace or just my heart feeling like the little cracks were finally starting to sew back together again.

I bit my lip in anticipation, waiting for the moment for the real talk to happen. The butterflies in my stomach going erratic as the silence filled in between the two of us.

"Sebastian I-"

He held up his hand for me to stop as his dark brown eyes met mine.

"Before you say anything Alora, and please, you know I'm not good at any of this..... just let me get this out." He huffed, sitting at the edge of his seat, his arms leaning down on his knees as he sat more forward.

"I should have never raised my wand at you. I cannot let that one go, I cannot believe I even let that happen. Just.... seeing Anne completely lifeless and I thought...." He breathed deeply. "I thought she was dead, and all I could think about was how my uncle took away her chance at survival and that I once again... had failed."

"Sebastian....." I said in almost a whisper.

"At one point, all I saw was red and when I looked at you all I saw was him. Doing the exact same thing. Taking away the one stable thing in my life and I just... completely lost myself."

I watched as his eyes became glossy, he fumbled with his fingers taking multiple deep breaths trying to get his emotions in check.

"I'm so unbelievably sorry... Alora. I'm so sorry... For everything."

I shook my head at him, taking in his apology. My breath shaking slightly, hearing those words finally spill out of his mouth. My own eyes defeating me as I felt the tears start to break lose.

His head was down as I shifted uncomfortably in my seat. Watching as something in the both of us started to break one by one.

I sniffled slightly, wiping a tear that had fallen from my eyes. "You know.... for the longest time I thought you hated me because of what I couldn't give you back then. It literally killed me last year that I couldn't give you the peace you and Anne deserved so badly. I want you to know Sebastian and I mean this, everything I have done up until this point... was for you."

The weight that lifted off my shoulders felt like a final breath of fresh air, finally getting to explain how I felt after all this time. The relief washing over me like a tall glass of water.

He shook his head, almost like he was in disbelief of my words. "How can I ever forgive myself... you almost died trying to give me something that was never yours to give." he said.

I sighed heavily. "I've had this conversation with myself so many times. But I always come back to the same solution, the same problem, the same heart ache. My heart, would have never let me rest unless I set out to do what I truly desired."

"Alora!" he slightly shouted becoming irritated, causing me to slightly jump. "You died, you almost died! I had to watch as you got worse. You took the curse and now what? You're just going to continue like nothing happened? You're going to die just like Anne almost did, and you think I'm not going to blame myself for it every day for the rest of my life?"

"Sebastian....." I said in a whisper.

He looked up at me, some tears streaming down his freckled face. He clutched his fist together in anger.

"You are so reckless! There is no cure!" Sebastian stated.

I breathed deeply, still feeling my own tears shed down my face.

"I don't care. If I had to do it all over again, I would still sacrifice everything to just see you and Anne happy."

"You are fucking crazy, do you know that?" He asked as he wiped his face with his sleeve. His brown eyes again pouring into mine with a hint of despair and anger.

Silence filled our small space, our breaths coming in and out likes waves. Both of us trying to get our heart rates down as the heat filled around us.

"I'm not sorry Sebastian. And I don't care how long it takes for you to forgive me. You need to know something though, and this is something I never told you because I didn't want you to lose hope for Anne."

His ears perked up at my words. Sitting slowly back on the couch so his back was cleaning against the cushion of the sofa.

"Isadora could pull the pain from the others using the ancient magic, but what she didn't know was that even though she had the capability, she never did it correctly. She made those people completely emotionless after pulling away their pain. I never wanted that for Anne, so it took me a long time to figure out how to do it correctly. And the only way I could potentially save her was to replace the curse with something else. I didn't know if it was going to even work but I figured since she was running out of time, I had no choice. She has a part of my soul Sebastian. You have to willingly give something in return of something that's taken. I never knew if I was going to make it or not but the fact I lived only proves that I don't believe I'll have the same affects as Anne. I think... " I breathed deeply." I think my body will take care of it in time."

He sighed, his hands going in his hair, trying to process the new information.

"I'm sorry Sebastian, I should have told you earlier, but the outcome would have still been the same."

He sat up slowly. Facing me as I leaned forward slightly so we were more eye level.

"I never wanted this for you.... I never wanted you to put yourself at risk for me." he said in almost a whisper.

"I know."