Star Trek// Spock x OC -> I'm ready

5// Good together

A/N another angst warning

Spock's POV

I go to my quarters distraught. I was doing so well before Kirk. I held it in so well. I hate to dwell but this aching feeling in my heart was simply amplified with the destruction of my planet, I had no friend to go to. No one to confine in, the only person being that was my mother. And I let her slip through my arms. I truly have no one, no one will understand.

I sit alone in my thoughts. Regretting the day I was born. Love, if this is what love brings I do not crave it with anyone. I sigh to myself, do I truly mean that? I begin getting ready for the left off celebration, my mind felt absent as I start to grow numb. The hours going by like a blur, then I heard a knock on my door.

Novas POV

I start to get ready, I wear a long sleeve black crop top with baggy pants and sandal like shoes. On my clothes were colorful flower designs placed on the edges of my clothing. Instead of my sword being on my back it now sits on my side. I look in the mirror putting on final touches. My nose-ring and earring with its connecting piece, bracelet cuffs, and a silver chain around my neck. I sigh to myself as I put green makeup on the inside of my eyes and use a brush to put a black line across the bridge of my nose. I look in the mirror one last time thinking about the last time I put this on. It's been years since but when my family threw me a going away party, I wanted to leave for star fleet in this. I never wanted to leave my culture or my people behind. I'm glad I could wear it after all these years. I use my PADD to see the time, about 20 minutes before the party starts. I go out of my quarters and straight across to Spock's. I knock on the door.

"It is Lieutenant Wild." I say. I begin hearing steps through the door. It opens, Spock looks at me expectingly. I huff before bowing deeply to him, my head almost below my waist. "Commander I apologize deeply for my behavior today. It was never my intent to cause any uncomfort or invoke any emotional distress. I value your opinion of me sir and I admire everything about you. I've heard many stories of you including the admirations from my Captain. I am glad you persevered to be here and I am honored to have met you. I would like our relationship to be a fruitful and honest one, so I may learn from you and perhaps you can learn from me as well. If you see fit please forgive me and allow me to be your friend. I understand I cannot possibly promise that I will never offend you again however I can say that I will always strive for a positive relationship and I am willing to learn from you.." I stare at the ground. He coughs so I look up at him, eventually standing fully. The tips of his ears were a light green. As he looked over me it reached his face. He opens his mouth and almost hesitantly speaks.

"Come in." He practically demands. I listen, as I walked in I looked around his quarters. Lots of Vulcan books, pots, and culture sat in his quarters. I then finally notice his traditional Vulcan wear on. He looks good in it. "Please sit.." I look and see a couch, I sat on one end while Spock sits on the other. "Tell me of what you heard." He looks at me, deep into my eyes.

"Well I know, your mother is human while your father is Vulcan. And this caused you to be outcasted and even bullied when you were younger. By adults as well as kids I'm sure. Ever since I've heard these things I've looked up to your strength. And although I see the pain in your childhood, I envy it as well." I sigh to myself thinking of my own.

"How so?" He almost looks puzzled.

"You were born from love. I'm sure the other Vulcan kids were jealous when they saw your mother actually hold you and your father not ostracize you. I as well when I heard your parents stayed together on Vulcan, that must've took lots of love." I look at him with a small smile.

"How is that a good thing? Being born from love?" He asks again.

"Would you rather be born of obligation? Or of pure reproductive purposes? These things are not good. None of them are." I look at him puzzled.