Star Trek// Spock x OC -> I'm ready

26//T'hy'la

A/N just a heads up, very slight lime ;)

(For those who don't know what lime means, don't worry, still no smut/lemon)

Spock's POV

After the meeting with my cadets a decided to go to my quarters. Nova and I are supposed to have lunch but I feel that I can't confront her after what I did. I lost control, it was the first time in a long time. I have never felt so strongly in this way before. I send a message to her, saying I was busy and could not make it. Which is true. I look over my written words on my PADD for Nova. In Kirks terms, I blew it.

This is what I am most afraid of, not being in control. I could not help the amount of shame I felt expressing myself in that way. It was like someone had hit me hard in the gut. Of course I know this is from my childhood and the rules or regulations I grew up with. It's simply difficult to overcome. But when I look into Novas eyes and see that smile. It's as if all of that goes away, everything goes away. For a moment, when I kissed her... it was as if every thought in my head stopped and I could just feel. It was freedom. A kiss has never felt like that before. Her lips were so soft. All I can think about is kissing her again. Telling her about how she makes me feel.

I want to do so. And I have never felt so determined despite how I am feeling now. There is doubt in my mind but none in my heart. Nova wants me and I want her, badly. I want to call her T'hy'la. I want the whole ship to know we are each other's.

I sigh to myself. We have a meeting with Kirk soon. Perhaps I will go early and prepare for that.

Novas POV

I sit in lunch alone. Spock said he couldn't make it due to work, but I have a feeling it's because of that kiss. I suspect it was unexpected from both sides. I need to make sure he's alright. I need him to know how much I appreciate that kiss. How much I want to kiss him again. When words are not enough to express ourselves, we should be comfortable showing each other. I want to show him how much I can feel for him as well. And there's only one way to do that, I have to find him. I know we have a meeting with Kirk since we'll be at New Vulcan in a about a week. Since Spock didn't come to lunch perhaps he will be at our designated meeting place. I throw away my lunch and make my way there; going as quickly as I could with my cane.

Third POV

Spock sits on his PADD, going over his notes for the meeting as well as some of his findings from earlier. He sighs to himself, Nova still heavy on his mind. Suddenly the door opens, Spock's head shoots up. His eyes land on Nova. Spock watches as she enters the room, how the atmosphere shifts when she came in. Her beauty astonishing him. The cause of his dilemma and yet his relief. His heart races in his chest looking into her eyes. Nova smiles at him.

"Busy working huh?" Nova says quietly, almost as if she was intruding or interrupting.

"Not busy enough I find." Spock says quietly. He opens his mouth again but he was hesitant. Nova waits for him to gather his words. Spock places his PADD on the table.

"I can't stop thinking...about you...and us. I apologize again for what I did on the lift, it was uncalled for." Spock mutters stoically. Nova walks, making her way to where Spock was sitting. Spock watches her every move, admiring her.

"There is no need to apologize Spock." She says sitting next to him. There chairs face each other. Spock simply looks at Nova. His eyes tracing her slowly. He sighs frustrated, staring at her lips. Spock's heart beats fast in his chest still. So badly he wants to tell, to show, how he feels about her. But it feels as if he is stopping himself against his will.

Nova looks away for a moment. Before looking back at Spock, finding her courage. She leans her cane against the table.

"Spock, can I...kiss you?" Nova looks at Spock's face, still stoic. He nods slightly. Nova leans in slowly, placing a hand on his knee to support her. She places a soft hand on his cheek. Her lips lightly brush against his. Spock doesn't kiss back, his eyes still open as she kisses him.