Lily

Chapter four

He wasn't afraid of loving,he was afraid of not being loved.'

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Lily's POV

I heaved a sigh as I took in his words.

Just like the previous night,his eyes were calculative. I stared into the red irises that stood out in his eyes.

Most werewolves would find the alpha's red eyes terrifying, another reminder of how much of a danger he was.

However,I found a certain unnatural beauty in them. The way they stared straight through me,almost as if penetrating my soul.

The moment disappeared as I remembered how eagerly the pack members had rushed out of the room when the girl had announced the alpha had been on his way to my room.

He cleared his throat,a rumble vibrating through his chest. I looked at the many tattoos that covered his arms.

Each one told a story. I wanted to run my hand over them and listen to him tell me about each and every one of them.

I snapped out of my trance as the alpha began to speak again. "I came to talk to you about the predicament of you being my mate."he stated.

His voice was soft and gruff,an animalist tone in it.My eyes widened at his choice of words, though.

Was I nothing more than just a predicament to him?

Did me being his mate mean nothing to him?

"How am I a predicament?"I asked curiously. A part of me dreaded his response, though.

The Red Blood Alpha took a seat on the bed,his hands clenching into his fists,as if what he was about to say was causing him pain.

"I'm sure you're aware of me being known as the Red Blood Alpha. I have a reputation to obtain, and as my mate,you are my weakness. To me, all you are is a liability."he said.

"In other words,I don't want you,"he finished.

My heart clenched in my chest, but as I looked into the alpha's eyes,I saw fear flash through them.

The alpha was scared.

That was a first. I thought the Red Blood Alpha was fearless. He created fear,he didn't fear anything as far as I am aware.

I had to admit, though,his words hurt me.
What was going to happen to me now?

Would I be cast out as a rogue?

I thought mates were supposed to love each other,no matter what.Mates weren't supposed to be a weakness,they were supposed to be something to cherish through a werewolf's life.

I cast my gaze to the floor,not bearing to meet the alpha's eyes.

"Although, because you are my mate,other packs will be out to get you. Therefore,you will stay here in my pack."he said.

My heart stopped. I didn't think I would become the Luna of this pack, but at least he was giving me a place in his pack. The fact that he didn't want me still hurt,though.

At least I had escaped from my old pack.

At least my mate was actually giving me a place in his pack.

I could start over and have a new beginning here.

As the alpha stood up and strode out of the room,his eyes lingered on me for a moment.

His stare was intense, but he also looked at me with longing.

Longing for something he wanted but couldn't have. Longing, I couldn't understand for what, though.

"What's your name?"he suddenly asked, catching me off guard. It was a simple question, but I knew it had a double meaning.

"Lily." I replied, and he simply nodded.

He soon turned around and left,leaving me alone.

I would prove him wrong. My heart quenched with pain as I recalled his words. They had hurt me.

I wasn't supposed to be a liability to him. It wasn't supposed to be this way.
Only e thought crossed me in that moment.

I would show him that I wasn't a liability....