My Little Sunshine

Ten

Isaiah POV

For a week straight now I've been staying in the woods. Seven days I've been away from home and I know they haven't noticed my absence. I've been in my other form, my wolf counterpart living and surviving out here. I'm not sure why I haven't done this before. It feels so freeing.

To eat I hunt what I can find or I go somewhere. Before I left I went home to pack a bunch of things, most of the clothes I packed I haven't even worn because I don't leave the forest much. I think out of the week I've left twice to get something cooked to eat. Something hot and filling. Not dead rabbit or deer.

The only thing that has really been on my mind is Rose. How she's been, what she's been doing. What everyone's doing. Most likely living their best lives without a burden lurking around. I'm sure my little sunshine is doing better without me. Good, she deserves that.

I'm not there leering over her shoulder ready to scent her, to hold her like my life depends on it. I'm sure her parents are happy to know I'm gone. I know her mum doesn't approve of me. I know she thinks I'm a bad influence and that Rose should stay clear of me.

I wonder how my parents are. Are they relieved to know I'm not around to cause trouble? That Elodie and I aren't coming home from school arguing like we usually do. They're probably glad I'm not home. They don't have to worry about me being trouble.

Being away seems to have done me some good. My family must be relieved to be rid of me, I'm some what glad to be gone. A part of me is glad because I don't have an annoying little sister fighting me on every small thing I do. I don't have parents breathing down my neck to stop arguing with my sister.

But I miss them. I miss my mum, she understood me the most. Was there when I first felt everything. Explained to me why I felt the way I was feeling. She was the only one who didn't see me how everyone else did. Sometimes I found my dad looking at me in some way, like he couldn't understand me or why I do what I do.

I don't even know why I do what I do, but I guess my mum does. My grandmother as well, she knows as well and is very much like my mother. I could've gone to her for a while, she would've taken me in and wouldn't bat an eye. Same with my grandfather. Both of them would set me up in a room without so much as a second thought.

My family is very much family oriented. If one has a problem, we all have a problem. I didn't go to my grandparents simply because I know they'd tell my parents. I don't want to burden them either, just like Elodie said so I guess this is the next best thing.

I mean I have my aunt and uncle, I could go to one of them spend some time there and be with my cousins. I could go to my dads parents but I know they'd also tell my mum and dad where I am. Just to keep myself and everyone happy I need to stay away.

Deciding not to hunt, I run back to my little camp to shift. My white fur shaking as I stretch and prepare my body before shifting. It feels weird being back like this. Human. Being a wolf for so long felt natural, I could definitely stay here for a long time.

I quickly pull on some clothes and shoes before walking around the woods finding my way out. I get to the edge of the territory where I left my car and got in. It didn't take me long to drive to town to get something to eat and leave. Hoping no one will bother me, I can eat, pay and leave without any problems.

As soon as I got to my favourite place to eat, I went in and sat down. I ordered a whole bunch of things ready to stuff my face with food. I looked around waiting for my eyes to land on someone I knew, someone from school to tell me everything's fine and no one's missing me. Yet I didn't see anyone I recognised. But I'm sure the know who I am.

Soon enough, my food was brought to me. The waitress giving me a flirty smile as she placed my plate down. I murmur a soft thank you and dig in as soon as she's gone. It didn't take me long to finish it all, leaving the plate clean. I didn't think I was that hungry but I could eat that over again.

Even after I was finished, I stayed seated looking at the empty plate thinking about everything yet nothing at the same time. Guessing what everyone's up to. Wondering if I even so much as cross their minds when they do something. If my parents so much as think of me. If Rose does.

I know she crosses my mind almost every second of every day. I don't know what it is about her but she draws me in. She makes me feel things I've never felt before. I know she's not my mate, how could someone that perfect be mated to me. She's too good for me and everyone knows it. I know it. She knows it.

Hey I can't help myself that every time I see her I have this desire to have her in my arms. To make it known who she belongs to, me. The need to scent her until she's covered in my scent and my scent alone. Not even hers seeping through the cracks, just mine.

I know it's wrong. It's illegal in the eyes of the werewolf community. I could be banished from the pack if Rose's parents so much as thought I was a danger to their daughter they'd go to the alpha and have me banished. No matter how close Marco is to my parents, his duty is to the pack and they come first. Their safety comes first. It wouldn't be so bad if I were to be exiled. Maybe then this pack could live normally once again.

Shaking my head, I get the bill and pay then leave. Getting to my car, the sky is dark and not many people are out. Usually I'd be back in the woods by now but being stuck in your head makes time fly. Driving down the roads I sigh feeling like I need something. Someone.

Parking back by the woods, I strip and shift back in to my wolf form. I run through the woods, jumping over and dodging trees I run with tunnel vision not having a clue where I'm going. And yet the more I run the more the area becomes familiar. More and more familiar, that of Rose's house.

I hide between the trees looking at the house and seeing Rose's bedroom window wide open. The same window that I have climbed through before and laid with her. The need to do that again made me step forward and begin to walk towards her window.

Only to stop and back away seeing her mother slam the window shut.

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