My Little Sunshine

Thirty-eight

Isaiah POV

Waking up this morning should've been good. Right now Rose and I should be in each others arms smiling and sharing our relief that we're mates. But here I am, nose buried in her neck while she sleeps because I'm too scared to wake her up. All I can smell her usual intoxicating scent and the baby's powerful one.

My arms are tight around her not wanting to let her go. In any way. Physically I don't want to let her go, she fits so well in my arms, against me. Mentally she's mine, she has been since the first time I laid my eyes on her. Other than her scent which I usually find mouthwatering, there's nothing. My wolf or vampire isn't giving me any indication of her being my mate.

I can't bare the thought of her waking up and knowing. I'd give anything for her to stay asleep so she won't find out. I can't lie to her, she knows when I lie. Even if I did, what would I say when her true mate comes along? It wouldn't be fair to either of them. No matter how much I don't want to let her go, I know I have to.

On my hand I can feel the kicks of our baby. The first and last I have with Rose. I can't imagine anyone being the mother of my kids, I can't imagine anyone being in the position Rose is in now. All I see right now and in the future is her, like this. This baby asleep in a room of our own house, her belly swollen with the next one. No one can take her place, I'd rather be alone for the rest of my life than be with someone else.

I felt Rose shift slightly and my body tensed. Her sigh filled the silence of the room. I don't even have to tell her, she knows. This was always a possibility but we didn't think it would be. The connection we have, the way we know each other so well inside and out, I don't understand how we're not mates. It fucking hurts to think. I can't say it.

I tighten my arms and bury my nose into her neck even more. She shakes as she silently cries, I can smell the saltiness of her tears, the way her body shakes as she tries to hold herself together. But she doesn't have to, if she falls apart I'll be there right behind her to pick up the pieces and make her whole again. I'll be the one to do it, not anyone else.

I turn her around and let her face bury in to my chest. "Let it out. I'm here, just let it out." I whisper. And just like that, Roses body shakes even worse, sobs break through her lips. She falls apart. But like I always will, I'm here to hold her together or pick up the piece's.

"I don't believe it. I don't believe it." Is all that left her mouth.

"I'm so sorry, sunshine." I muttered not knowing what to do. I don't know what to say to make this better. Neither of us didn't think we'd wake up this morning and be like this. We had high hopes that we'd be mates, our connection is so strong I don't understand how we're not.

My bedroom door slowly opens and I look up and see my mum and dad stood there. Their eyes holding nothing but pity and sympathy while I hold Rose.

"Baby we're so sorry." My mum whispered. "Is there anything we can do for you?"

"No." I shake my head. "There's not. There's nothing no one can do right now. We just need a bit of time to ourselves."

"Okay. Let us know if you need anything." My dad said then pulled my mum away and shut the door.

"We'll figure this out, okay. Nothing has to change, we'll still be us. How we are now. No mate bond will tell me who I should spend the rest of my life with. I love you, sunshine, only you." I mutter to her, trying anything to calm her down.

"W-what are we meant to do?" Rose looks up at me. "We have a baby coming, we're not mates. I can't live without you, Isaiah."

"You'll never have to. I'm right here, you have my baby in you. No one can keep me away. I'll always find my way back to you, no matter what. In this life and the next and all the ones to come, you'll be mine and I'll always be yours. Nothing has to change, it won't change because I choose you. I haven't even got the scent of someone else so there is no one. It's only you."

"Nothings going to change?" Rose asks.

"Nothing. Absolutely nothing. We have something that even fated mates don't have. I don't care about some bond because I have something even better with you. We will still be a family, we'll get our own house, make it our own. We'll raise our baby there and have many more. Our own little army to terrorise the pack." I rub my hand on her swollen belly. Not long now.

"How many more?" She smiles.

"I have no problem with putting a baby inside you, sunshine. We'll have as many as you want to give me. If one is enough then that's all we'll have, if you want five then I'll keep you healthy and we'll have five. Baby if you want twelve kids, I'll be there every step of the way. I'll build us a damn house so each and every baby of ours can have its own space and privacy. We can stay here in this pack or we can move somewhere else, the city, the country, we can go to the middle of nowhere and I'll make nothing, something and that something will be our home. Absolutely nothing will change apart from the babies you'll be popping out."

"I like the sound of that."

"It's you and me, sunshine. But if anything changes, you find your mate and you want him, then just know that I'll let you go. But I'll still be there, for you, for the baby. He may have you but he won't have my baby because they'll have a dad. I'll be there every step of the way. No matter that, I'll be there, but more importantly I'll still be there for you." I reassure her.

"I don't want anyone else but you. It'll be us forever." Rose says.

"Forever." I smile at her and lean down to kiss her.

Hi guys, I'm so sorry again for such a long time in between chapters. I hope you had a great Christmas and new years. Hope you enjoyed this chapter.