next current

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who am I
without that constant
drowning in melancholy,
it's not that
I wouldn't know it better,
I guess I just don't want to.

who am I
without the searching -
to pull myself right under
the next current;
but it's almost beautiful - dreamy...
lost at sea.
and as for at least every other day,
I'd be lying if I said I didn't like it this way.

ship wrecked -
I'm destruction at its best,
the finest type of broken.
I'm torture to myself,
but I can't seem to be anyone else -
and somehow it's gotten fun to run,
to never be done...

Way too used to this
can't recall a different day,
"never enough" always paved the way.
I'm my next current
and I consist of endless waves.
to be me is like being stuck forever,
to the throne I built, doomed -

to my never ending maze.

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this piece sits very close to my heart - I really hope you liked it and if you did, please leave me a comment <333 (also credits to my new sunset lamp for that gorgeous, aesthetic lighting - I'm so in love😍)

thank you so much for reading! - until soon <3

xo, S🌹❤️

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