Scar wars (Larry fanfic)

Louis

Well if anyone would see me like this they'd think I'm on drugs. I'm checking the time every five minutes. I'm sweating like crazy because I'm really hot. And I am constantly taking deep breaths trying to calm down my heart rhythm. 

I even started biting my lips and that is something I hate. 

The line on my finger is bloody red and I wonder if it's because of me or because of him. Either way, I have to see him.

"What if I play sick?" I say to Liam in a moment of relax and he looks at me frowned "Are you crazy? What will you do if another doctor take cares of you?"

I'd run. 

Definitely run.

I run my hand through my hair and exhale deeply "God's sake" I curse underneath me breath and Liam laughs "I thought only men that can cary a pregnancy go through this" 

I look at him and fake laugh hitting his arm "You're such an idiot" I say and he raises his arms in defence and goes to serve the human that just entered the cafe. 

I keep thinking about the way I'm feeling. When Harry came he was freezing. What if I'm this hot to warm him up? What if I'm like a month who has milk for her baby but I have warmth for my baby? What if we are so connected that everytime he needs me I'll need him too? 

It's so unusual for me to feel like I need someone because I never needed someone. As Harry, I've always done it alone. But now? It's like I have nothing inside me knowing he is away from me. Knowing he needs cuddles and I can't give him cuddles. 

When he broke down in my arms I just felt how much he missed me and I can't get it off my mind. Does it hurt him? Does it hurt him being apart from me? Does it feel wrong not having my touch on him? Does he miss me?

He surely does but at the same time he has to work. My poor man has to handle the constant need for me while saving people. He could've stayed home but something tells me he didn't think it'll be so strong. 

Men like him are usually hated by others strictly because of the fact that they can have kids. So no one is taught about their rules. Their behaviours. Their needs. 

I remember reading a book once about them and there was a man like him talking about being forced to stay away from his partner during that time and it caused him physical pain until to the point where he couldn't get out of bed anymore. 

I also read about a man that stayed glued to his partner for days because he couldn't even think about not having him next to his body. People like Harry are rare, there is a study that says only about 5k of people are like him so sadly he might be the only one in that hospital.

Which leads me to another conclusion. Maybe he didn't want to be judge for staying home. Which makes my blood boil only at the thought of that. Because putting yourself through this shit just because you don't want to be judged is bad. 

Harry doesn't deserve this.

Harry deserves to have me whenever the hell he wants. 

I deserve to have him whenever I want.

I finally blink and come down to earth and take another deep breath and I check the time. 6:30pm. I will have dinner with him and I don't give a shit about anyone. If anyone decides to try to die they can wait. 

I make him a coffee to go with the dinner I prepared, steak and veggies and I wave at Liam smiling widely because I will finally see my baby. 

I looked after him while walking towards his office but he was never in sight so I went into his office preparing our romantic dinner.