Scar wars (Larry fanfic)

Harry

I can't handle it. 

I just can't handle it. 

I was talking with Zayn and got lost in my thoughts three times, ignoring him completely for five minutes. He said I should give in and go home because I'm only hurting myself and I noticed he's right when I couldn't even focus anymore because my mind only sees Louis and my body started shaking. 

I am now talking with Gangster who doesn't know a lot about this so I have to play strong. "I will call Liam, he'll stay with you tonight and even tomorrow maybe." My tone came out weaker than it ever was and shaking. I don't even recognise myself. "Please." He says hopeful.

I take my phone and I barely hold it because my hands are shaking. It's like I'm a drug addict. But in reality I'm Louis' addict.

Louis answers immediately and I just want to cry. "Baby?" I take a deep breath and try to say "Hi. Can you come with Liam? I succeeded in getting him to stay with Gangster tonight. Louis, come" I literally begged him and he said nothing more and ended the call. 

I look at Gangster and I smile "I'll go now. Good night." He smiles and says "Thank you so much Harry, good night." 

I leave the room and wait for my man in the hallway. I walk up and down. I rub my hand over my face and take deep breaths. And I hear his steps. 

Yes, stop judging, I know how his steps sound.

I turn to my right and see him. I run at him burying my face in his neck and I swear I won't let go of him tonight. Or ever. I don't even care if anyone will see me. I don't care about anything on this earth but him.

He holds me tight and I can feel him holding my coat with both hands turned into fists and I just hold him tight kissing his neck multiple times. I look at him with teary eyes and he smiles, making me hug him again. 

God he's so cute

And beautiful. 

And mine

I suppose Liam entered Zayn's room so I let him walk me to my office. The moment the door closes I hold him even tighter. I can feel my whole body shaking and him tightening the grip. 

He holds me there until I feel good enough to look at him and unglue myself to him. I take his hand holding it tight and he kisses my hand right on the now purple line. 

"Let's go home" I say and he raises his eyebrows "Yes, I can't do it without you, I can't. And I don't give a shit what people will think." I say and he kisses me gently making me melt under his touch. 

Can't he just kiss me forever? 

I take off my coat and take the other one and then hug him again. I have to hug him. I can't live without him. "Let's go then" He says and I force myself to step back and hold only his hands.

The distance to my car felt like forever, and if it would've been more far than it already was I couldn't have done it without hugging him again. I look at Louis with big eyes and he hugs me. 

I need him.

I need his touch.

He rubs his hand on my back shushing me gently and I calm myself down. He picks me up, placing me on the passenger seat and quickly goes to the driving seat. I immediately miss his touch and I take his hand hugging it to my chest.

But it's not enough. 

I'm cold.

I can't breathe.