To be or not to be? Lloyd x fem!Reader//Ninjago

Chapter 9: "Can we be friends?"

Dinner was unlike any other i'd had in this monastery (I've literally only had 2 meals with these guys). They all goofed around and it almost once again broke out into another food war which this time i knew i was probably gonna be prepared for. Plate as a shield and my cutlery as my sword. Wu looked unimpressed as he tried to mouth a sorry only to get hit by a spoonful of noodles that wriggled about his head and landed in his beard. I giggled a bit as a part of me almost forgot the situation i'm in.

Oh yeah.. that's right. My aunt and uncle's disappearance. As far as i'm concerned none if my family had never had any sort of enemies, sure they argued with people but never to the point where they'd become enemies with somebody. Seriously though. Where the fuck did they go.

I guess someone must've noticed my suddenly sad face as the food war was getting to an end. I needed to be alone for a bit. I wasn't hungry anymore. Usually i'm a hungry hippo bitch. But i guess not today. I excused myself, bowing and saying my thanks for the meal which tasted heavenly.

I walked over to my room, closing the door and going over to the window, i opened it, letting myself rest on the window edge whilst i looked out to the night sky. I sighed. The once gone feeling of missing my family once returned again to haunt me.

Did they even miss me? Were they thinking about me? Were we looking at the same starry sky as one another..?

"You alright?" A soft voice called from behind me, pulling me from my thoughts as i turned around to face the voice.

'Lloyd' I breathed out in a soft whisper as i watched him walk towards me. His eyes beginning to fixate on the night sky as he also rested on the window edge, only a few centimetres apart. Oh god i've been thinking for too long. Say something Y/N!

"Yeah, Yeah! I'm- I'm ok uhh what about you?" I said quickly as i gave him a smile which he didn't see but i hope he like.. i don't know.. I just wanted to be nice.

"Yeah, I was just wondering if you were ok, earlier at the table, you seemed.. sad, do you miss your family?" He said in a understanding way aa if trying to connect or bond with me.

"Yeah.. i do, i just.. I just wonder if they're alright. Or.. if they miss me at all. Being here, by myself... It's new. I've never been so far away from my family. I wanted a new feeling. A new change to my life.. But.. This isn't exactly what i asked for..." I said realising i'd been rambling

"I-I'm sorry, you probably can't relate- I mean! You probably don't wanna hear about this.. I'm sorry" I looked away feeling embarrassed at my own behaviour.

He chuckled as he finally faces me and said "It's fine, really. I understand how you feel and that's completely normal..." He paused for a moment as if trying to think of something else to say until he finally spoke.

"As a kid.. I always wondered where my family was too."

I looked at his face, it looked solemn, however his eyes told a different story. A story of pain, neglect, abandonment, expectations. And i was about to hear it in person. Although it did leave me a bit confused, his family was right here. Why was he wondering where they were. Were wu and misako and garmadon never there?

"What do you mean..?" I asked hesitantly, i didn't wanna cross any boundaries.

"Well.. As a kid, I wasn't really.. looked after.. that well.. I went to darkley's boarding school as a kid because my mother had left me there when i was really young... I eventually got kicked out for being 'too good' and so i tried to act the baddest i could as a kid. Then the ninja found me.. and i've been here ever since then. My father wasn't always evil. He did love me, he was just too evil to be able to show it i guess..." He admitted.

My heart ached a bit hearing about this.. How could they do that to him.. mostly, how old was he? What on earth.. Is there more stuff.. is this just the surface of his problems..

"You must've been so scared.. being alone like that" I said whole-heartedly.

He stared into my eyes, a glimmer shone in them as if he felt as if someone understood until it was quickly replaced by something else.

"Yeah.. I guess.. i was" He said then turning away from my gaze.

What the heck?..

I hummed as i listened and tried not to show any sort of emotion of feeling angry. Right now it wasn't the time. We stayed like that for a while, still feeling the cold breeze scrape against our skins as the warmth of our breath made it's way through the cold night air. Sure it was summer but the sun doesn't come out in the night. Then again, a sudden feeling washed over me. A feeling of content and then a soft burning sensation made it's way onto my hand. A dragon like tattoo mark began to form.

What the hell, what's happening. What's going on I glanced at lloyd to see him shifting his arm uncomfortably. Then his gaze met mine again. The burning sensation grew. I felt my heart race and the heat rise up to my cheeks. I swear if it wasn't for the darkness of the night sky i would've been as red as a tomato, i would've looked like a hot lava lamp, I would've looked like i was glowing neon red. Literally kai.

"Do you also.. feel it?" He said softly

I stayed quiet and just nodded my head. He just stared at me, baffled and a look of disappointment and disgust in his eyes told me what i thought was that he didn't want his soulmate to be me. He then quickly said "I.. I've got to go"