whenever this world makes me cry, I do not cry too long. people are mean to each other and inconsistent, but I have a lovely power
I have the power to make every single person I know...better! I will never ever have to face someone's flaws. in fact, I could never ever have to face someone again!
here's how I do it, I'll take the absolute best traits out of everyone I adore and fully maximize it. put them in cute outfits, do their hair in cute ways, stamp permanent pink hearts in their eyesockets instead of pupils, and then they can love me in just the way I need forever.
it's not like I'm completely replacing these people, like I said, people are inconsistent! and I hate that. the living version of them, flaws and all, are still perfect to me and are seen and loved on the daily. if you haven't messed up recently, of course! but sometimes, you just need to be surrounded by all the absolutely flawless traits of your friends all at once
that's the power of imagination. I don't like that I do this to cope, but I can erase that too. pretend I'm every single bit the happy, loving boy they see me as. they all have flaws, but I think I have the worst ones by far. that's why I can't let people see me down!
when the world crumbles at my feet again, messages left on seen, friends going out without me, arguments and tussles around every corner... I'll be just fine.
I can imagine I'm happy and I can imagine you're all good people until I'm ready to face reality again.
