Waiting For You/ Chanlix

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Things were going great...at least for a while. Chan and Felix ventured the aquarium and made small conversations.

Slowly the awkwardness melted away which couldn't have made Felix happier, he was finally getting to learn some things about Chan.

Chan just felt relief for the first time since Minho had passed due to the fact that he had gone longer than 5 minutes without thinking about him. It may sound like an exaggeration but he had grown up with Minho, fallen in love with him. It's hard not to think about the person who you spent every second with after they're gone. Especially with so much alone time when all he could think about was how much more he could have been with him during those last few months. But Minho wouldn't allow him to. He pushed Chan away. One thing that he still couldn't understand. Was it supposed to make it hurt less? I'm reality it did the opposite as whenever he would sit in silence his brain would drift off thinking about how much longer he could have held him for, how many more times he could have made Minho smile, all of the things he could have done if he had known how little time he had left.

However, he wasn't thinking about any of this at the moment. He was admiring everything around him, maybe even looking at Felix a little longer than he meant to from time to time.

Of course, getting to know Chan better made Felix happy as well. His brain strayed further and further from the reason as to why they even came to the aquarium in the first place.

His cheeks heated up every time Chan smiled at him, even if it weren't a full smile, Felix didn't care. It was cute and it made the butterflies in his stomachs go crazy.

"Chan, this way!" Felix said out of nowhere, catching Chan off guard.

"Hmm?" Chan hummed in response before feeling a small hand wrap around his own and pulling him forward.

He felt warm, safe, maybe a butterfly or two in his stomach as well, but more than anything he felt terrified.

It felt wrong.

The only person who could make him feel like this was Minho.

How could Felix make him feel safe when he barely knew him. He grew up with Minho. Minho was the only one who was allowed to make him feel this way.

Felix sat down in a small corner of the aquarium, making Chan sit next to him in front of a large tank, somehow it was the only place there that wasn't insanely crowded.

"Are you okay?" Felix asked, concerned, he saw Chan's eyes fill with tears and immediately let go of his hand. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to- I just- I didn't think-"

Chan didn't say anything and silently held Felix's hand in his own again.

"I wanna feel like this for a little while longer," he said quietly, leaning his head on Felix's shoulder. "...even if it's wrong."