Back in Time

Chapter 18

Monica P.O.V

I felt like very long hours had passed, my leg wouldn't stop bouncing, I couldn't keep still. Time seemed to be moving incredibly slow.

Tick Tock.

When was the doctor going to come out?

Tick Tock.

What were they doing to Roxanne?

Tick Tock.

Was she okay? Was she in pain? Was she awake already? Was she scared? I bet she was, I bet she needed me next to her.

Tick Tock.

What was wrong with her?! Why was the doctor taking so long to tell us what was wrong with her? It only added to my nerves more! If it had been something not too serious then he would've been out here already right?

The fact that it was taking forever iced my blood!

I gnawed at the inside of my cheek it wasn't long before I tasted blood, but I didn't care, I kept chewing the inside of my cheek. I felt like I should be doing something! Anything! Other than just sitting here waiting.

It was my responsibility to take care of Roxanne, so why was I out here waiting like an idiot?

I got up and began to pace, I had to be doing something! Or I would go crazy.

I paced quickly thinking worriedly, if something happened to her, I would never be able to recover.

If something happened to my little cousin, God what would I do? Roxanne was the only one I had left, she was practically my sister! My right arm! I couldn't do much with just one arm! I needed both, I needed her to be alright!

"Monica stop," I heard dad's voice order.

Stop, I thought, stop what?

I paced faster, because of her I was alive right now! When the vampires attacked, I had wanted to go after my father, I wanted to run after him but Roxanne had gripped my arm not allowing me to run after him. If she had let me I would've probably been killed also!

So in a way thanks to her I'm here right now!

I bit the inside of my cheek again, crap what am I going to do? If something terrible happens to her? I'll never be able to be the same again!

How will I be able to do this all alone? I cant stop Hawking by myself! I need her to help me! I needed her to be next to my side, most of the things I did was becase she motivated me to do them!

If something happened to her I'd have nothing to fight for anymore!

Just the thought of it already caused inimaginable pain inside of me. The thought of me alone, without her made me want to double and hold my chest.

My heart thudded hard against my ribs, I always made sure to protect her against anything that would possibility hurt her, but how could I fight against a disease?

I was powerless when it came to health.

I felt like crying, I felt so helpess, so useless right now!

It was my fault she was unconscious when I found her, I wondered how long she had been like that? With that high fever? Damn it I hadn't even noticed!

I should be in there with her, holding her hand, what if she's scared? What if she needs me?

I hugged myself and bit my raw cheek, I couldn't help but worry more, oh if only Aunt Emma was here she'd be so mad at me!

I swallowed hard, oh Aunt Emma...I missed her so much! The last memory I had of her caused ridges of pain inside of me.