Desire

CHAPTER THIRTY

ADELAIDE

He's staring at me waiting for answers he was no fucking right to. Why the fuck does this random stranger think he can butt into my private life? why didn't Carter come for me? Maybe, Carter is actually done with me. I was just playing things for him. Tears welled in my eyes. I tried so hard to fight them but no luck. I didn't want to cry in front of this fucking asshole. But then he does something unexpected. He wraps his arms around me in a hug, and I let him needing his comfort right now.

It was like him for him to be cold and then hot and I didn't understand it one bit. He acted so much like Carter. The hot and then cold. Always changed his mind on whether he wanted to be with me or not. But in this case, whether he wants to care about me or not. He had darker hair, jet black, green eyes, and a perfect devil look to him. He wore all back like he was going through an emo phase. He was so much like him but so different. It was like there was a coldness to him. Like someone had broken him beyond repair. A little part of me wanted to save him.

"He didn't. He didn't come for me," I said through my tears. I was starting to hyperventilate. I felt my legs give out underneath me but he tightened his hold on me. He didn't let me fall. Why? If I asked he wouldn't tell me. He doesn't tell me much of anything about himself. I don't even know his name. Yet, here I am falling apart in front of a stranger. I fucking hate this.

"Why doesn't he want me?" I cried into his chest. "Why?" He didn't reply. He just lifted me up wedding style and put me right back into the car.  I didn't understand him one bit. One minute he acted like he didn't care about anything the next he was holding me and lifting me into his car. Why does he call themselves the devil if all I have seen is good? Does he call himself the devil because he's a nightmare dressed as a daydream? It makes me feel like this is too good to be true.  How long before he shuts down again?

He shuts the car door and runs to the other side immediately getting into the car.  He turned to look at me and I could see the indecision in his face. There's something he wants to tell me. I don't know if I can handle it if Carter doesn't want me. "Carter didn't come because I lied to him. Not because he didn't want to come. He wanted to save you so badly. Carter loves you," he states. He looked pained like it hurt him to tell me that but, I needed it. More than he knows.

He turns back towards the front and turns on the car. I placed my hand on his. He immediately turned his gaze on mine. I removed my hand instantly. "Thank you," I replied with a smile. He doesn't say anything back. He just turns back and starts driving back into town. The car falls into silence once again.

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"My name is Jack," he says out of nowhere. "Btw"

I had been sleeping and his voice immediately woke me up. I looked over at him. I don't know why he's telling me this. He hadn't told me anything about himself since we met. He's been so closed off. Is he finally beginning to trust me? Is he opening up to me, finally?

I smiled at him. Then, he turned back and focused on the road. What does this mean? I'm going to try and not think too much about it.

We turned into the driveway and I started to get nervous. I don't know how Carter is going to react to my pregnancy. I mean, I'm not showing so maybe he won't even see it.

Jack took my hand like he could feel that I was nervous. It was like he was telling me everything was going to be okay and I believed him. I was ready for this. I could go in there and face Carter and the blow-up from everything. He stayed in the car with me holding my hand until I was ready to get out of the car. I hesitate.

"I'm not ready," I spoke. Tears falling down my face. I wasn't ready to face everything that had happened yet. Without replying, he turned the car on and pulled out of the driveway. I was shocked but, so thankful to him. I didn't even care where we were going I just didn't want to be there. Not yet, anyway.

He pulled his car into the driveway of my house. How the fuck did he know where I lived? did Carter tell him? There was another car in the drive away. A red and black Jeep: Ella's car. Has she been living in my house this whole time? Why has she been living in my house? did she fight with Carter? does she know?

"How did you know where I lived?" I questioned. Before he could answer, Ella came running out of my apartment running towards me. I finally get out of the car and land on my feet. She wraps her arms around me and lifts me in the air. She's so happy to see me shaking me. So she's not mad at me? Doesn't she know about Carter and me?

Jack taps her on the shoulder and I give him a look. I don't want her to know yet. I rather be happy for now than blow the happiness bubble. If my pregnancy comes out right now it will be real. It will blow everything up again. Nothing will ever be the same. Ella will never look at me the same. He nods in understanding. She puts me down on the ground and turns her attention to Jack.

"Why didn't you tell anyone you went to get Ade?" she questioned, hitting him in the arm. I could tell she was angry she wasn't invited to save me but, I think it was best she wasn't there. Especially, when Jack partially saved me from almost being murdered.

"So I can be the hero of course?" Jack replied with a smirk on his face. She rolled my eyes at him.

She hooked our arms together as he walked into my apartment. Jack followed behind us. "So do you want to tell me why you're living in my apartment. No offense,"

She stopped in her place and turned to me. Jack came around her and stood at my back like he was trapping me in. "Carter told me about. Well, you know." she said kind, of nervously. I can't tell if she's angry at me. She's seems really calm. I nod. "I kind of freaked and walked out. I have been living here ever since then," she continued. I instantly felt extremely guilty. I knew this was going to happen but I never expected the fallout would be this great.

I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her in. "Im so fucking sorry, Ella." I apologized. I don't regret loving Carter and I never will but I do regret not telling Ella earlier. I should have told her. She's my best friend. I have no excuses for it.

She stayed quiet and didn't hug me back. She went stiff like she just remembered what had happened. She pulled away and yelled. "You fucked my dad and now your fucking sorry, Adelaide?"

Jack tried to walk in front to stop the fight but I waved him off. I knew it was coming  but no matter how much I prepared it wouldn't be ready. I just had to face the consequences even if it means losing my best friend. I'll fight for our friendship.

"I'm sorrry, Ella. I didn't know how to tell you an we were on and off the the most part anyways. I didn't know if it was going to be somethng serious. I didn't want to blow up our lives if we didn't need to,"

She slapped me causing my face to turn to the side. I held the place where it stung. "You never think about the consquences of your actions, Adelaide. You literally could have walked away and not fucked my father. Instead, you choose him because he was out of reach and you couldn't get to him. You always want what you can't fucking have. No matter who it hurt."

I can't believe she's saying these things about me. Does she really think I'm just some attention whore after her father? How long has this been inside her waiting to explose? I stand there completely speechless. No matter what I say she's not going to believe me. She honestly believes everything she thinks without knowing the actual truth.

"I fucking loved him," I cried out. "More than anything else in the fucking universe,"