Desire

CHAPTER TEN!

Adelaide

"Yes," I replied. He smiled widely. I thought he was going to yell at me and tell me that sleeping with my boss is bad. But instead, he smiled at me.

"Ooo your such a bad girl. Teach me your ways?" he asked, teasing. He's so fucking giddy about this like it was something to be proud of.

I felt so fucking guilty about it and the feeling wouldn't leave me. I'm supposed to hang out with her tonight. How am I supposed to look at her knowing I fucked her dad hours earlier?

"It wasn't something that should be done, Lucian. I can't be fucking my best friend's dad she's going to kill me," I said dramatically leaning back in my chair.

"Come on, Adelaide is this exciting? Your fucking our hot boss. Did I mention he was hot?"

I laughed.

"I just wish he wasn't my best friend's dad. How am I supposed to hang out with her tonight knowing that I fucked her dad?"

"I'm sorry you're going through this," he said taking my hand in his. "But you put yourself in this situation by flirting with him. You didn't have to fuck him,"

He winces like he's waiting for me to respond. But I'm in shock. I wasn't expecting it. I threw one of the extra forks at him.

"You can't be mad at me for telling the truth, Adelaide. Yes, he's hot but he's your best friend's dad. You made the bed you have to lay in it. I'm your friend. I love you, but I would kill you if I was Ella,"

I understood completely. If I was Ella I would kill me too. But she would understand, right?

It's not just sex for me. It's passion, a passion I haven't felt for anyone else. He makes me feel like I'm worthy like I deserve love. He makes me feel seen. I know it's wrong but then why does it feel so fucking right?

"I know," I groaned.

He lifted himself from his seat and came over to me wrapping me in a hug. "I support you if you want to continue fucking him but know that this will never work long haul."

I know

Hours later, I found myself sitting in my office alone. Everyone has left for the day and I'm sitting here staring at the wall. Ella has been texting me nonstop and I haven't responded. For some reason, I can't make myself get off this chair and go to her house.

Then, there's a knock on the door. My eyes snapped to the person at my door. Great. "Come in," I yelled.

Carter walks in. I take him in. His hair is messy, he looks stressed. He looks so fucking tired. He rubs his hands through his hair as he walks in front of me.

'What the fuck are you doing here, Adelaide?"  he screamed at me.

I could tell he was a little worried about me and I hated that. It would be way better if I hated him. Then, I wouldn't have the burning feeling of wanting to jump his bones every time I lay eyes on him.

"I can't be there Mr Gilmore, not if we continue this. I can't look at her knowing that I had sex with her father. I shouldn't have done it,"

I know he understands more than I know. The only people who would understand are us. But every time he looks at me the way he's looking at me right now. His eyes fixated on mine looking at me like he wants to ravage me.

"You shouldn't feel guilty for your desires, they are completely normal and should be celebrated,"

"Well," I stood up on my chair so my back was straight and I was no longer leaning back. "She's not going to see it that way. Especially because you're her dad. We should stop this before it goes farther than it needs to. It's not like it can go anywhere anyways,"

I search his eyes, I can see the desperation in his eyes of wanting to hold on to us and wanting to let go of his daughter. He moves towards me and stands in front of me. He reaches out to grab my hand but I don't let him.

I stand up and stand in front of him with fake confidence. He was still towering over me creating a shadow. He was staring down at me like he was trying so hard not to pull me in and have me.

"Let's face it this was just a fling. It will start and end. I will get married to some guy have a few kids and this will be a thing of the past," I stated strongly. I hoped that he got the point that we were doomed.

He puts his hands on my waist and pulls me in trapping me in his arms. Which gave me fucking butterflies.

"This is real Adelaide."

It was all the words I wanted to hear. But I didn't know if he was saying it because he was trying to seduce me or because he meant it.

I want him so badly it hurts.

"We can't,"

I pushed him away and walked away from him. I can't do this. I can't stand here and kiss him and think it's okay.

"Adelaide." He groans. I can tell he was getting frustrated with me.

"Tell me what kind of future do you think we could have? All we have are stolen moments, and hidden dinners at restaurants, we can't even go out in public," I screamed at him.

I want him but at what cost?

"I think this is more about you being afraid to jump than anything. Adelaide, we both know were attracted to each other so let's cut the bullshit and jump in with both feet,"

"Adelaide?"

I turned around to find my best friend at the door. A worried look on her face.

She turns to her father and says, "I knew you were keeping her late dad."

She presses a kiss on his cheek.

"You need to stop overworking my girl,"

She hooks our arms together. Smiling. She has no idea what was happening in here.

"You're free to leave, Adelaide" he started, not looking at me.

Ella jumped up and down excitedly. I know she has plans for today but my mind will be on Carter.