Desire

CHAPTER FOURTY- FOUR

JackAdelaide is staring at the wall in a haze. I argued with Carter for the past 5 minutes about why Adelaide called him. I'm getting nowhere and this isn't about me. I need to get Adelaide to the hospital before she bleeds out. I wrap my arms around her waist to lift her off the bed. "What the hell are you doing, Jack?" he asks immediately. It was like he blocked out the part of losing the baby out of his mind. I get it. He's in shock, too, but I can't sit here and pretend that this isn't happening right now. I need to save Adelaide. He looks at the blood on the bed and then the blood on her pants.

"We need to get Adelaide to the hospital like now!" I yelled back. He looks at the blood on the bed and then the blood on her pants. It was like it just snapped into his head that she lost the baby. He frowned, his eyebrows furrowed. She wraps her arms around my neck and picks her up wedding style, she rests her head on my chest but doesn't meet my eyes.

She looks so wounded and vulnerable. I wish there were something I could do to make this go away. This is probably my fault. I did this to her and Carter. I should have never done what I did. I just wanted to scare her so she wouldn't look at me with those lustful eyes and pouty lips. Now she'll never forgive me.

Carter follows behind me as I leave the hotel and put Adelaide in the car. Carter sits with her in the back seat. I get in the driver's seat. My eyes glance at the mirror. I see Adelaide laying her head against Carter while he rubs his hands against her hair. She seems like she feels so safe, so comfortable, not like how I made her feel upstairs. I shake the thoughts from my head. What Adelaide needs right now is the hospital. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Carter rushes into the emergency room like Superman. He carries Adelaide in his arms, yelling at anyone to help Adelaide. Instantly 10 different people crowd around Adelaide and I'm pushed towards the back far away from, Adelaide. I watch as they place Adelaide on a gurney and push Adelaide, far, far, far away. Carter tries to follow them but is immediately told to stay in the waiting room.

He huffed, in frustration. I had never seen him like this. Adelaide passes through the door and we can't see her anymore. Then, he falls to his knees. I ran towards him as his knees hit the floor. I held my brother for the first time in years as he fell apart. I wanted to fall apart too, but I can't. I have to be the strong one for Adelaide, and Carter.

I lifted him off the floor and sat him down on a chair in the waiting room. He has been bending down with his head in his hands for what seems like hours. No word from the doctors, and I am afraid to go up to the nurse's station and ask for an update. What if she's dead? No. I can't think like that. Adelaide will be okay. She's stronger than anyone else. Especially me. Adelaide will come out of this okay. She has to.

Carter pushes his head up from his hands and looks at me. His eyes are bloodshot red. "Why did Adelaide call me?" he asks.

"Now isn't the time for this, Carter," I warned him. He's upset and looking for a way to let out his anger, but this isn't the time or place for that. Adelaide needs him here."This is all your fault. You just couldn't stay away from her. You destroyed her life just like you destroyed everyone else's" he continues. I won't let him get in my head. I won't give him the fight he's so craving.

"Drop it, Carter. We can talk about this later," I replied, authoritatively. Secretly I didn't want him to know what I did. Carter and his high horse would only look at me with disappointment. I couldn't take that.

He jumps out of his seat, yelling. "WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED JACK?" I grabbed his arm and sat him down. I'm going to have to tell him now. He's going to kill me. He needs someone to blame and I'm in the hot seat. I do deserve some if not all the blame. I was the one who made Adelaide afraid of me. I messed her up so badly that she lost the baby. "I sent my guards to protect Adelaide. Adelaide wanted to mess with me so she flirted with one of them. So to teach her a lesson," he shakes his head at me, disappointment in his eyes. " I killed him in front of her."

His eyes pop out of his eyes, and he yells at me. "What the hell is wrong with you? You're the reason I lost my child and I might lose Adelaide. You always have to push everyone who cares about you away."

"You weren't there. You didn't see the fear in her eyes as she looked at me as if I was some monster. So I decided to prove her right about me," I explained. I knew it was wrong and I still did it. He didn't see the look on her face as she looked at me like I was a monster. He didn't see the moment she lost all faith in me. He knows what is like to lose Adelaide entirely. It is absolutely soul-crushing because she is such a good person and she makes you believe that you can be good. So I snapped. I never snapped, but I did. What is this girl doing to me?"You should just go, Jack. You did enough. Adelaide will not want to see you," he says, spacing into space. I know it's because he doesn't want to look at me. I disappointed my little brother. God, I messed up.

"I'm not going anywhere. Adelaide needs me,"