Desire

CHAPTER FORTY-NINE

Adelaide

I wake up and Carter isn't next to me. What did I think? He was going to stay with a woman who was his daughter's age. The way he talked tells me that something happened between Carter and me. Did I try to seduce Carter? Were we in a relationship?

He was the only one who would tell me the truth, who would fill in the blanks, who wouldn't baby me like I was a child. Carter cares about me. Maybe it's because he knew me for years and thinks of me as his other daughter, but then why did he look at me that way?

My mom hasn't said anything to me since that day. I know she doesn't approve of Mr. Gilmore and I being friends, but I'm an adult and I made my own decision. I know she was trying to protect me, but I don't need protection. How can she not see that she's hurting me?

There's a knock on the door. I immediately ran towards the door thinking it was Mr Gilmore. He has been coming over every day this week. Before I opened the door I ran my hands through my clothes. Why am I so nervous?

I opened the door with a smile, but my smile soon dropped when I saw none other than Jack Gilmore standing at my door. I was frozen in fear. Carter hasn't told me exactly what happened yet, but he has told me that Jack is a bad guy. A Mafia leader. Did he come here to finish the job?

I tried and shut the door on him, but he was stronger than me. "I'm not going to hurt you, Adelaide,"

"Liar," I screamed. "You came into my house pretending you were my friend and the whole time you were planning behind my back. I-" I choked up. I was going to put on a brave face and pretend I wasn't in the least scared, but he brought out the emotion in me. "Lost my baby because of you. I won't ever trust you again,"

"Adelaide,"

"No," I interrupted her "You pretended to be into me just so you could win my heart and destroy me with my enemy of an ex-best friend. I don't have to listen to a thing you say," I tried to shut the door on him again. This time he opens the door, I stumble but he catches me. His hands feel like fire on my skin. 

He stares into my eyes and I into his. His green eyes capture mine and everything is hazy. No, Adelaide. He killed your baby. I pushed myself from his arms moving far away from him. He turns away finally giving up.

He turns to me in the doorway with a sad look. "It wasn't all fake, Adelaide. It might have been in the beginning, but I really did fall in love with you," he admits. I wish I could remember. Did I fall in love with him too? 

"So why did you do it?" I questioned, with my arms crossed against my chest. I wanted answers, and the only person I could get them from was the person standing in front of me. I want to be angry at him, but I can see by the look in his eyes that he feels guilty. This will probably haunt him for the rest of his life as it haunts me, but  I can't forgive him. 

"It's family over everything. It's been like that since I was born. Ella needed me and I couldn't let her down. She's my niece. I didn't want to do it. I just wanted to scare you I never....." he trails off. 

"You never thought what?" I asked.

"That you would lose the baby, that I would lose you and my brother at the same time," he stated. "I never thought I would have wanted a relationship with my brother after he left me in the arms of the devil. I also never thought that I would meet a girl like you that is so fucking special. You know how to make me, the devil laugh and smile. You make me want to be better,"

Tears are falling on my face at a rapid speed that I can barely see Jack. Everything in me is repulsed by him. I don't think I can ever forgive him for what he did, but if one day I can. I want it to be my choice. 

"I can't forgive you, Jack. Please leave," I practically beg. He turns back around, I immediately walk up to the door and slam it shut. I fall back into the door falling until my butt is on the floor. I try into my knees.

I don't know how long I have been sitting here before a knock on the door. I look up and I'm in complete darkness. Is it night already? I cried almost all day. I don't want anyone to see me like this.

"Adelaide, please open the door," he screams from the other side of the door. Mr Gilmore? I immediately open the door and jump into his arms. He wrapped his arms around me. I could tell he was shocked. 

"What happened?" he asked, in a concerned voice. 

"Jack," I replied. He tensed in my arms, pulled me back by my arms, and looked into my eyes. His eyes were furious. "What the hell did he do?" he growled. 

I put my hand on his chest to calm him down. "Down boy. I got rid of him. It's okay, I promise," I lied. Nothing could make this okay. I don't even know what the hell do anymore! nothing feels right anymore. So I just cried, cried while holding onto Carter.