DESOLATION

17

INEZ

It has been an hour since we started our journey to my new home. Luckily, there are no guards with me today. I checked again and again, but found no car following me. Lorcan surprised me this time.

I wanted to stop at a shop and enjoy a few breaths of freedom in the open air, but the driver told me that, as per Lorcan's order, he would not stop the car unless we reached our destination. It sounded a little strange, but I did not want to argue. I am afraid that I might make Lorcan angry, and then he changes his mind.

I don't even know where we are heading. There is complete silence in the car. It's not like I want the driver to talk to me, but living with Lorcan has made me fear the silence. His silence is always calm before the storm. Whenever I am with him, his silence instills a deep fear inside me.

Whenever there is silence, all the unwanted thoughts conjure up in my mind and start to haunt me. It is still hard for me to believe Lorcan has let me leave. It will take a long time for me to believe that I am finally away from Lorcan. There is a small fear in my heart that maybe something is wrong. Why would he order the driver not to stop the car anywhere? He is letting me go, so why would he fear me escaping? Could this be the thing that I am being taken somewhere where they would kill me?

No, Lorcan cannot kill me. I am too precious for him to kill. He can torture me day and night but he would never kill me. There is something else going on in his mind that I am unaware of, but what could it be? I know very well that I cannot compete with Lorcan's mind. Lorcan's mind is a dark place, and an innocent person like me can never guess what is going on in his mind.

"Cá fhad a thógfaidh sé orainn sroicheadh ​​ansin?" I asked the driver, breaking the silence. (How long will it take for us to reach there?)

"Táimid beagnach ann, a bhanríon." He instantly replied without even gazing in my direction. (We are almost there, queen.)

I let go of all the bad thoughts and think about my new life. I am going to start a new life and I should be happy.

Upon thinking for a while, I have decided that I will not use Lorcan's card and will forget that I even have it. I am going to start a new life there; therefore, I will start working somewhere and will bear my expenses on my own.

The cash Lorcan has given me is enough for me to survive almost two to three months without doing any work, but I will keep the cash safe for emergencies. While leaving, Lorcan said that he had made all the preparations. I wonder what he meant by that. Never mind, I will find out about this once I get there.

I know life will not be easier in a new place, without any friends, and when I don't know anyone, but still, I am hopeful. I am glad that I am familiar with the language. This is the only thing I am thankful to Lorcan for. If I did not know how to speak the local language, then surviving here would have been a lot more difficult.

I thought of going back to my country, but it is impossible. Lorcan is too clever. He knew that I would consider this option the moment I left his mansion, that's why he took my passport and all the necessary documents that I would have needed. Besides this, he still has Evelyn. Only he knows where she is. What am I even thinking? I can never leave him. I know he must have thought of something to keep an eye on me.

I hope I find what is lacking in my life, where the driver is taking me. I looked outside when I noticed the dark clouds looming in the sky. The sky is grey and I think it's going to rain. It was not going to rain in Dublin. I was looking outside when I saw tiny drops of water falling on the window. It has started raining. "A Bhanríon, tá bainte amach againn. Tá an teach in aice láimhe." The driver said, gaining my attention. (Queen, we have reached. The house is nearby.)