Stray Kids Oneshots Collection (Smut & Fluff)

10 ¦ Love Me Again

Ship: Felix / Chan

Words: 1,070

Summary: 'But you have to', is all what Felix can think of, because who else will make him feel sane again? Who else can repair his broken heart, and make him happy again? Why can't Chan just-

"Love me again, please" he sobs, but the words come out so quietly, which he isn't even sure if Chan heard them.

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Felix huffs; stairs are so annoying.

He drags himself over another set of stairs, until he finally reaches the second floor.

There, he waits a moment, his back sliding down a wall while hitting his head a little too harshly.

The blonde shuts his eyes as he feels his head spin. Suddenly he feels so light, no weight is holding him. That's kind of funny though.

He opens his eyelids again, and he still is leaning against the wall, his legs trembling a little for the cold tempartures.

The spinning in his head is gone now, and so he tries to make the most of the situation.

He stands up, almost falls for the lack of balance. His arms fly forward and he gets to hold himself at the railings of the stairs.

"Phew" he sighs, and chuckles a little, he must look so dumb like this. Drunk, smelly and cold.

As he finally is standing on both feet again, he realizes it's not even his own apartment complex he went to.

Then why is he here? It looks familiar.

Too familiar actually.

He presses the bell of the apartment, and feels his head spinning again. So he starts to knock, once, twice, a few times more, just in case it's not loud enough.

With no answer, Felix rests his forehead against the wooden door. "Please" he sniffles, and crouches down on his knees because he feels his legs giving out.

The door opens, and Felix sits just there, small and hopeless. He looks up, his eyes signalling so many whys and pleases.

Now a little too late, Felix realizes why the building has been so familiar to him.

"Chan?"

He hears Chan sigh – and it's a long one – and sees him crouch down to his eye level.

Chan looks like his usual, Felix thinks, and he does. His curly hair is still black, a bit ruffled from the sleeping. His eyes are round and boba-like. His skin looks soft; the acne scar on his cheek is still there. His nose awfully pretty as always while his lips are more puffed than usual.

Felix feels calmness flow through his body just by looking at Chan. It's comfortable.

"..and why do you come here drunk at 4 in the morning?" is what he hears him suddenly say. Felix was too occupied admiring his features that he forgot he was supposed to listen.

"Oh" he answers innocently, the corner of his lips rising to his cheeks. He doesn't really know either way what's going on, all he knows that having Chan this close again is making him so happy.

"You're smiling? That's all?"

Chan's eyes wander on Felix's body, noticing the lack of warming clothes on his freezing limbs. "Why didn't you wear a jacket or a coat? It's damn cold outside"

Felix had brought a coat to the bar the previous evening, he was warm. But then he drank a bit too much, and alcohol made him realize how much he misses Chan. So much, that it was hurting not to do anything for it.

Felix continues smiling but with closed eyes. They are kind of heavy right now.

"I should leave you outside Felix"

At that, the blonde jerks himself forward, clasping his hands around the elder's legs. "N-no! Chan please"

Helpless, Felix tries to focus his sight on Chan. "I can't..be alone. You can't reject me again"

Chan listens, doesn't budge.

Felix doesn't know how else to tell him how much he wants to belong to him again, how he wants everything to be back to how it used to be. His mouth works slower than his brain and it frustrates him so much.

Tears prickle in his eyes, and he doesn't care that other people are sleeping in the same building right now.

"Chan" he calls again, and it might be the only word he can think of even when he's not sober.

He stands up as Chan does it first. "Can I? Can we..?" Felix doesn't know what he's asking for, he just hates how his voice is quivering so loudly. Hates how Chan is saying nothing but just staring at him wordlessly.

His heart has been hurting so much; it's a sentiment that's not even similar to physical pain. His solution has been to go back to Chan, because only Chan can fix his heart, can get rid of his pain; right?

He stumbles a little forward and gets caught in the elder's warm arms just in time. Now he is standing even closer to him, chest to chest, and his voice catches in his throat. He desperately wants to form sentences, wants to pour his heart and feelings out to Chan, but his lips don't produce any noise.

"Felix, I can't help you" Chan then sighs, and it's a steady tone with the way he answers. There is still uncertainty lingering in the air; Chan doesn't let go of Felix.

But you have to, is all what Felix can think of, because, who else will make him feel sane again? Who else can repair his broken heart, and make him happy again? Why can't Chan just-

"Love me again, please" he sobs, but the words come out so quietly, that he isn't even sure if Chan heard them.

Why can't Chan love him again?

He lowers his gaze. Tries to form words. "Please, Chan" he hiccoups, and he means it, letter by letter.

Felix doesn't see the way Chan's pupils dilate, his face blank and unsure of what to say.

With the lack of answers Felix gets, he cries even more, because he truly believes he did everything he could. It's not a crying of sadness, but one with realization and despair.

He can't leave Chan, he can't forget him, he can't live without him. Hell, he can't love anyone else than Chan. If it's not him, how else is he supposed to breathe?

The effect of his drunkenness reaches his high and Felix loses his senses once again, crumbling in Chan's arms. His eyes droop to closure, and a small part of him decides he would like to pass out forever, if he doesn't wake up with Chan again.

The man wraps his hands around Felix's torso and thighs. He lifts him up and spares a second or two to just look at the passed-out boy.

Maybe, Felix will get his happy ending.

A/N: kinda sad this one ahah