Stray Kids Oneshots Collection (Smut & Fluff)

51 ¦ Can't sleep without you

Warning: Mention of insomnia and nightmare disorder

Ship: Felix / Bang Chan

Words: 1,111

Summary: "I see you're tired. Goodnight, baby". He plants a kiss into his hair, only after Felix gives him a verbal response. Chan is always so gentle, always so careful around him. Felix falls and falls.

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Please, dear god, don't make me have nightmares tonight.

Felix closes his eyes then, tightly, and repeats his little prayer again and again. He's sick of waking up every night at 3 am with tears in his eyes and body covered in sweat. He is tired of witnessing his brain making him dream the most realistic nightmares.

He clutches his plushie tighter to his chest, as he tries to breathe out. His entire body shakes and screams for some rest, which he tries to ignore hard. One more night to go, he thinks to himself. Well, every night it gets worse. He used to love sleeping, but now he detests it.

He doesn't know when it started, or what it could've caused - he just wants it to stop now. In his dreams, he saw himself getting murdered, sliced up, bullied, raped, exposed and tortured so many times. Every single night. It terrifies him to the point, that he starts to fear certain situations in real life too.

He opens his eyes again with a shaky exhale. He quickly realizes this isn't going anywhere tonight. His body is so, so exhausted; he shouldn't be staying up again.

Nonetheless, he stands up and walks out to the hallway. He doesn't bother doing that in pyjamas and barefaced, he is too tired to think about the rest.

He arrives at the certain door. 185. He remembers what Chan told him a few years ago still to this day.

'You can always come over for anything, okay Lixie?'

Well, that means Felix wouldn't bother him if he'd come over now, wouldn't he?

And so, Felix knocks.

He feels ridiculous actually, still holding the bunny plushie in his left hand, while he nervously holds onto his right ear. Then, he hears some steps from the other side. Silence.

Door opens, and Chan greets him with a dimpled smile - so calming in an instant. He scans him quickly and tilts his head as he sees his condition. "What's wrong?"

"Can't sleep", Felix mumbles, rubbing his eyes with the hand he's holding the plushie. He doesn't see Chan eying him thoughtfully, just notices him opening the door wider.

"Then come inside, Lixie. Sleep with me".

He doesn't let himself get told twice; Felix waddles behind Chan when he leads him the way to the bedroom. The older is already wearing what looks like nightclothes. A simple black shirt with simple black shorts.

When they enter his bedroom, Chan points to the left side of the bed. Felix nods and walks to it. He wanders his eyes around the empty walls, before pulling away the sheets from the mattress.