Dear Ex,
Anyare?! Anyare sa'yo?! Anyare sa'ten?!
Ansabi mo? Pre-occupied ka sa basketball? Ahh Okay. Whatever you say.
Pero, kung totoong yun ang reason mo, sana inexplain mo na lang sa akin. Sana pinaintindi mo na ganun ang gusto mong gawin, na ang gusto mo pala ay mawala ako sa buhay mo. Hindi kase agad ako nainform.
Pinilit kong kumapit kahit alam kong malabo. Pinilit kong ayusin kahit alam ko sa sarili kong wala naman na talagang pag-asa.
I cried everynight thinking what did I do wrong and why you left me hanging in the air.
I ain't superhero. I am a human, I have mind, I have a heart. I can also feel pain, just so you know.
According to Taylor Swift, "I knew you were trouble when you walked in", ut still I allowed you to enter my life thinking that you're different. But when walked out of it, as what Taylor Swift had said, "The worst part wasnt losing you, it was losing me."
I gave myself one month to get over you. Two weeks mourning for losing myself and two weeks for acceptance, I need to accept the fact that we are not for each other. I promised myself that after a month, whether I like it or not, with or without you, I should keep moving. I should get on with my life.
Yeah, yeah. I am fully aware about the three months rule after a break up pero sabi nga ni Papa Jack, "Bakit mo papaabutin ng tatlong buwan ang pagmomove on kung kaya naman ng dalawang linggo?", what's the rule for, anyway? Respeto para sa ex? Fuck that shit, First of all, nirespeto mo ba ko nung iniwan niya kong nakabitin sa ere MAG-ISA?
After a month without you, I was much better, by that time, I deleted all pictures of us stored inn my phone and social media accounts. I blocked your number in my phone. I unfollwed you on social media, I was surprised though, wala akong makapang sakit. I knew by then, I have gotten over you. I have gotten over us. Well, sa gabi-gabi ko ba namang pag-iyak, malamang naubos ko na lahat ng sakit.
I busied myself. I went out with my friends. I trained a lot, which I think is more for my advantage than anything. I ate a lot. I posed on different magazines. And I transformed myself to a much better version of me, physically, mentally, emotionally.
I am done with the stage where I always tell myself "Akala ko kase hindi niya ako iiwan", fudge. Everytime na naiisip kong sinabi ko yun sa sarili ko natatawa ako. Kadiri kase. Para namang kung sino kang pogi kung iyakan ko. Kung tutuusin naman madami jan, DJP, Joseph Marco and uhhmmm,secret ko na yun.
In less than 3 months, I have totally moved on. I guess the program I designed for myself was successful.
I want to thank the people behind me though. Di nila ako iniwan, buti pa sila. My family who has been there, especially my Mom na kahit ginawa kong evening ritual ang pag-iyak, andyan pa din siya, kinocomfort ako.
Sa mga friends and teammates ko na hindi nagsawang umaliw sa akin, Thanks.
Sa supporters ko na hindi ako iniwan kahit na alam ko naman na hindi ka talaga nila gusto para sa akin dahil alam nilang masasaktan ako sayo, eh pinilit pa ding tanggapin ka at kiligin para sa atin, kase they know na masaya alo sayo. Well, if I could just turn back time, I could have listened to them, tama pala sa predictions nila before.
Sa Miefer Angels ooooohhh, scratch that, sa Mika's Angels, thanks sa kanila na nasalikod ko lang kahit wala ka na.
I want to thank all of them, they did a lot of things just to let me move on with someone who's kinda jerk named Kiefer..oopppss. Sorry, it slipped my tongue. :)
Pakisabi din sa family mo na nagpapasalamat ako, especially with you parents. Once, they treated me as a part of your family.
Thanks to you, too . Kung hindi mo ginawa lahat ng yun, I am not gonna be who I am today. I wont be this beautiful. Haha.
I hope for the best.
Eh ganun talaga, walang forever.
Your Ex,
#3
