"Let's end this, Aly! Let's stop this shit!"
"Why Kief, inlove ka na ba ulit sa kanya?", and she laughed. Nakakaloko tong isang to ah!
"I never stopped her loving her, in the first place! Alam mo yan!!", I answered.
We were one of the parking spaces in Ateneo. I chose that place to avoid paparazzi shots. People in Ateneo dont give a fuck on us so it was better if we would be in that place.
She chuckled. "Never stopped? Kaya pala may ganito tayo."
"This is all your stupid idea, Aly!"
"And you agreed on this stupid idea of mine, Kief.", and she smiled.
Yes, I agreed to be with her. But it was just supposed to start and end in Singapore. At malabo na kami nun ni Mika. I have been asking Aly to stop what we have, before pa kami nagkabalikan ni M<ika. I wanted to stop it kase alam kong mali. May mga tao kaming nasasagasaan at niloloko and I wanted a perfect relationship with Mika, she gave me another chance and I didnt want to mess it up for the world. Ayoko na.
"Are you not thinking about Alfred, Ly? Ginagamit natin siya para pagtakpan lahat ng mga kalokohan natin at mga gusto mo."
"Hindi naman siya nagrereklamo ah! And he's all good with our set-up so no need to worry about him. Mahal ako nun kaya kahit anong ipagawa ko sakanya, he will definitely do it for me."
"Wala ka bang konsensya?! Ha?! May mga taong nadadamay at madadamay dahil sa mga pinagagawa natin! So please, lets stop this."
"You want us to stop, right?", and I nodded, "No problem, I'll call Mika now to let her know kung anong meron tayo. Your choice Kief."
I thought about it. Sooner or later, Mika would know everything about us. How will I explain all these? Na wala lang naman ito at landi landi lang naman lahat ng meron sa amin? Ganun? "And I will also tell her na kaya mo siya iniwan ay dahil sa akin.", and she dialed Mika's number but I immediately stopped her.
"Please, Aly, Please!, I pleaded. How could she be so heartless?
"I dont want you to be with Mika again, Kief. At yan ang totoo.", she yelled. Good thing no one was there except us. Kundi, issue na naman."Ano yun? Masaya kayo samantalang ako miserable ang buhay?"
"What are you talking about, Aly? Both of us know from the start na yung relationship natin ay hanggang doon lang. Have I not set that expectation to you before?"
"Oo. Hanggang sa kama lang, tama ba?! Hanggang dun lang ba talaga ako sayo, Kiefer?", she asked and my heart broke, I didnt expect Alyssa to ask me that question, "Hindi man lang ba sumagi sa isip mo ang marara---"
"Hindi,", I cut her off, "Hindi dahil alam mo naman talaga kung sino ang mahal ko. We have been friends with benefits for the longest time, Aly! And you should have known na wala akong nararamdaman sayo bukod sa pagiging magkaibigan natin! And that's all that I can offer!", I wasnt able to control my emper, I yelled at her too. "Everything was set before pa natin simulan ang kalokohang to, at pumayag ka, what now Aly? Why are you making this so hard for me, huh?!"
She chuckled bitterly. "Dont you care about me? Dont you love me, Kief? Kase ako, mahal na mahal kasi kita!", and a tear fell down her face.
I felt bad. I felt bad for her. I was sorry for her. I took advantage of her, to think, I was her fiend, anong ginawa ko? "Of course, I care and love you,", she smiled, "because you are my bestfriend."
"Damn you, Kiefer! Bakit hindi mo akong magawang mahalin?!", she shouted.
"Dahil may mahal nga akong iba at si Mika yun, alin sa mga salitang yun ang hindi mo maintindihan, Alyssa?!", I shouted back. "I was wrong when I hurt her and I regret everything that had happened. This time, I cant screw this up."
