"Do not chase people. Be you and do your own thing and work hard. The right people who belong in your life will come to you, and stay."
I saw Tin Gamboa posted this on IG. O wonder who she was pertaining to pero may kutob akong para sa amin ni Kiefer. To tell you honestly, nagclick kami ni Tin dati. We watched Kiefer's game together, we cheered together and we were pissed when Ateneo won over La Salle last season, pero after nung magbreak kami ni Kief, parang nag-iba na siya.
Before, we text each other quite regularly. We call each other, too. Viber eerday pero suddenly nawala yun na parang bola. And when Kiefer and I were already okay, ayun di na siya nagparamdam, I really wonder. Hindi naman dapat ganun siguro noh? Ano to, bigla-bigla na lang di magpaparmadam tapos magpopost ng mga ganitong kaek-ekan.
And so far, sa circle of friends naman nila, according to Kiefer, wala pang ibang nagbreak at nagkabalikan kundi kami, so yung gut feeling ko na pinapatamaan niya ako sa mga posts niya ay malala ng bongga.
I read her post once more, Para sa akin talaga to eh. I told myself. Tapos naiconnect ko din siya dun sa post niya na dinelete din niya, yung "Family ata.", sa IG with Kiefer's picture together with some friends and Aly. And I didnt like the feeling. I didnt like the idea that my jealousy came into place again. I promised Kiefer that I wont feel that way again, but I couldnt stand that promise lalo na kung may mga ganito. I can sense something that wasnt right.
But I thought that it wasnt right to conclude on things that werent supported by facts.
Pero, just like any other girls in town, pag yung intuition or instinct gumana, 85/100 ang possibility na totoo siya.
I scrolled some more and saw a post of @daminghugot which was a picture of a guy's abs with a caption of "May abs ka nga, cheater naman.", and I hit like.
Seconds after, Kiefer called and he was fuming. Bakit? Anyare?
"Ano yung like mo sa instagram? Bakit ganun?", he hissed and I wondered why he was reacting that way.
When I liked the picture, wala lang sa akin, natawa lang ako sa caption. Madami kasing ganun, aminin man natin o hindi, di ba?
"Oh eh ano naman?", I replied, "Saka bakit ka nagagalit?"
"Bakit ka naglalike ng pictures na mga ganun? Alam mo namang yng mga fans mo eh kung ano-ano ang iniisip pag may ganyan. Ako na naman mapapasama jan sa ginagawa mo Mika eh.", he said angrily.
"Ganun ba talaga ang tingin mo sa supporters ko, Kief? Saka, bakit sila nasali dito? It was just a like out of nothing. I found the picture witty so I liked it. Anong problema?"
"Anong "ganun ba talaga" ang tingin ko sa fans mo?", I was still confused why he was like that pero may namumuo ng reason sa utak ko, He is being defensive, "Sila pa ba talag ang kakampihan mo? Ha? Mika?"
"Ay teka lang Kief ha! To tell you honestly, I really dont know where you are coming from. I dont understand why you are being ass with just a simple like on a photo. Why do you sound do defensive to me, Kief?", at natigilan siya.
With the way he acted, alam kong may mali. No, scratch that, I knew by then that my intuitions were true. Alam ko na ang hinala ko ay hindi lang basta hinala. "At please lang Kief ha, wag mong idadamay yung mga taong wala namang kinalaman sa relasyong ito, at ang alam lang gawin ay ang suportahan kung saan ako sasaya. You should be thankful pa nga dahil kahit ayaw nila sayo, well, hindi lahat naman, ay hindi ka na nila binabash. Can you still remember how they bashed you and you trended just because they were so concern about how I felt when you left me?"
"Hindi ko dinadamay ang mga supporters dito, Mika!", he said, "Ang sa akin lang, wag kang maglalike ng ganyang mga pictures dahil nilalagyan ng meaning ng mga tao yan. Ako na naman magiging masama eh."
"Sure kang yan lang Kief?", I asked, that was just so unbelievable. I know Kiefer so well, pag ganito, binabaligtad niya ang sitwasyon para ang ibang tao ang magmukhang masama at siya, maging malinis sa tingin ng lahat. "You know what, lets end this conversation, this is going nowhere.", and I ended the call.
Walang hiya naman eh, kakabati pa lang namin last week tapos ito na naman.
Well, nagbati kami dahil hinarana ko siya. Ang mali lang dun ay dahil hindi ko masyadong niclear yung sa kanila ni Aly. Naniwala ako sa sinabi niya nag friends lang sila. Hindi ako nagtanong, hindi ako nag-imbestiga. I thought, that was my fault.
After that call, I checked IG again and checked the tagged pictures of Kiefer. Madami kasing nakikita dun. Lahat halos. Mga paparazzi shots, madami.
Natuwa ako, daming fans na nakakapagpapicture sa kanya. Yan ang isa sa mga nagustuhan ko kay Kief, if fans will ask him to have pictures with them, walang pagdadalawang isip na o-oo siya. That's how he handles fans. Kahit sabihin ng bouncers na wag, siya naman,. "Sige lang, Kuya, yaan niyo na po. Papilahin niyo na lang."
I saw pictures of him with Miefer Davao, and it actually loosened up my mood. Ang cute lang, talagang may placard pa. Hahahaha. I scrolled some more at uminit bigla yung ulo ko sa nakita ko.
A picture of him and her. It was collage pictures, which I believe was taken during an event for Jollibee Las Pinas. First picture, the caption was, The way he looks at her. Second picture, The way she looks at him. Third picture, The way they look at each other.
I swear to God, that moment, parang gusto kong magwala sa sobrang inis. That look was just for me, anong nangyari at tinitingnan niya na din ng ganun si Aly ngayon? And the way he smiled at her, sa akin lang yun nuon, bakit may kashare na ko nagyon?
I screenshot the picture, para may ebidensya ako. I scrolled the other older pictures and the next picture which caught my attention was the picture of him with AVO and the girl, and what really pissed me off was that in the picture, it seemed to look like they were holding each other's hands.Tang-ina, this, and took a screenshot.
After stalking my boyfriend's IG, one thing was for sure. Napagtagpi-tagpi ko na lahat. From the pictures that were posted by Tin. The Quote that I liked and the way he reacted to it. Nagegets ko na kung bakit binabaligtad niya, at binubuntong sa tendecy na ibash siya ulit ng supporters ko, at kung bakit napakadefensive niya sa sitwasyon.
But still, hindi ko inalis ang possibility na maaring mali ako sa mga kutob ko. Never ka pang nagkamali sa mga ganyan, Mika. Sa intincts ko, ngayon lang ako sobrang kinabahan. Hindi maari to.
I checked my twitter and stalked on his account some more. He changed his DP, from his No Harm No Foul picture to a picture that seems to be a keychain ni Lebron James and a monkey miniature.
I thought kung kanino galing ang mga items na yun. I forced my self to think about someone who loves Lebron so much.
Fuck! I hissed, Lebron James was Aly's favorite basketball player.
