Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ako kinabahan nung makita ko siya. Sobra akong kinabahan, as in SOBRA!
Pero what I liked about our accidental meeting was, wala akogn makapang galit o sama ng loob for him. Kasi yun yung isa sa mga kinakatakutan ko, na baka pag nakita ko ulit siya, baka lahat ng mga nangyari sa amin dati, sakit, galit at sama ng loob, bumalik din.
Pero yung kabog ng dibdib ko? IMBA Dre. Walang mapaglagyan, but I wanted to give myself a round of applause kasi di ako nangatog, oh huh! Achievement kaya yun.
I continued to wipe his shirt with the tissue I was holding and my hands stopped moving when I realized that it was the part of his chest I used to use as my pillows before, May iba na kayang umuunan dito? Namiss ko tong human pillow ko na to, Oopps, me and my mouth, "Soory talaga, Kief. I wasnt looking kasi!", I explained. Trying my best not to trail off.
He didnt respond. Nakatayo lang siya watching my every movement, as if enjoying the moment. Awkward. Very awkward.
"Kamusta ka na?', he asked and my hands trembled, Shit! That voice that I have never heard for the last two years.
"Okay la-lang. O-okay lang a-ako!", wait kailan ka pa naging utal, Ye? My gosh, sobrang nakakahiya, "Uhmm, ikaw? Kamusta ka na?", I asked him. I felt like I really needed to say something to lessen the awkwardness of the situation. Weh? Ang sabihin mo kase, gusto mo din namang malaman kung kamusta na siya. Echosera ka, Mika!
"Malungkot.", he answered and my eyes automatically searched for his. Ang lungkot ng mga mata niya. Laki ng eye bags, natutulog pa ba tong lalaking toh? I felt the urge of touching his face, running my fingers through his nose,. tracing the corners of his lips, the same way I always do before. Shit this! Wooh!
That moment, parang gusto ko siyang yakapin. What I didnt realize was that the things that I thought of doing to him ay talagang ginagawa ko na pala. I was already touching his cheeks with my thumb, the same cheeks I love to kiss before, trying to wipe the tears that were falling on his face. Hala, umiiyak na pala siya?
I tried pulling my hands off his face but Kiefer was too quick and held my hands and brought it to his lips and murmured, "I have been sad, Mika. Dalawang taon mahigit na."
And I wanted to cry, pero ayoko. Gusto ko siyang yakapin, pero pinigilan ko. I didnt want him to misinterpret my actions. Ayaw ko. Ayoko. "Glad to see you again, ye.", and he smiled, it was a sad smile though.
I nodded. Paran akong napipe kasi naman eh, anong sasabihin ko ba dapat?
For the second time, I pulled my hands from his grip but I wasnt successful still.
We just stood there, me, still didnt know what to do, while him, he was sobbing like a little kid being bullied by his "siga" classmate. "I missed you. I missed you, Babe!"
When I heard him call me in our endearment, hindi ko napigilan yung luha ko, kusa silang tumulo. How I missed him calling me that, but before pa niya makita na umiiyak ako, I already wiped my tears. Bakit ba ako umiiyak? Bakit ako nagkakakagnito?
"Miks?", he called me and I looked at him. "I still lo--".
"BEE!"
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"BEE!", Mika and I looked at the person who called her, Torralba!
Mika pulled her hands from mine and hid it at her back, para siyang isang bata na nahuli ng teacher na kumuha ng snacks sa isa paniyang classmate. Why you look so guilty? Bee pa tawagan nila?
