Dear Ex,
Anyare?! Anyare sa'ken?! Anyare sa'ttin?!
Ansabi ko sayo nun na I was just pre-ooccupied with basketball. I really was. Pero hindi ko lang din talaga masabi sayo na ayaw ko na. Ayaw ko na sayo. Ayaw ko na sa atin.
What's the point in keeping you, anyway? Nakuha ko na ang gusto kong makuha sayo, you were already smitten by me, you already fell. Hard.
Don't you know that you're my biggest challenge? You're not the typical girl out there na isang kalabit ko lang, Oo na kaagad. With you, I needed to prove myself, worthy of you, worthy of us.
Eventually, bumigay ka. Who wouldn't? I am Kiefer Ravena, for Pete's sake. Lahat nadadaan ko sa ngiti. Lahat nadadaan ko aa pacute. Lahat nadadaan ko sa charm. Including my toughest conquest, the darling of the crown, and that is You.
Kaya when I got you, I could never be prouder, pati ang Swag Princess tiklop sa charms ko, me and my precious ego.
When I felt that I don't need you anymore, I pushed you to your limit hanggang sa bumigay ka. Can you still remember when I went to Vegas at sumama ka kina Mama sa airport ppara ihatid ako, akala mo masaya akong makita ka? Well not really, but I needed to smile and act as if I wanted to see, syempre for the show.
I went to SG for SEA Games 2015 and I was happy as hell. Akalain mo yun, I felt free, I had freedom to flirt every girl in town, kasi single ako, yun ang pinaniwalaan ko. I didnt even bother myself thinking how would you feel, the hell I care about you. And then I took a break and went to Bora. Oh, those nights were the best. I had so much fun, without you.
When I got back from my short vacation in Bora, reality struck. Reality that there's no more Mika waiting for me.
I thought I dont want you anymore. I thiught I dont need, care and love you anymore. I thought our game was over but I was wrong. Ikaw pa din pala ang kailangan ko.
Dani, Thirdy, Pauly were not talking to me. Bakit? Kase jerk ako. Kasi may sinaktan ako. I deserved that cold shoulder from them.
One morning, I was browsing twitter and one of your fan pages posted a picture of you wearing a red long gown. I literally dropped my jaw, You were gorgeous. You looked happy, you looked contented even without me. And I felt my heart twinched.
I decided to contact you, but my calls weren't going through, I sent you text messages though I knew that you wont receive those. I tried sending message through twitter and IG but unfortunately, you already blocked me.
I called your mom, I wanted to say sorry, I wanted to talk to you, but she wouldnt let me and asked me not to contact anyone in your family ever again.
I reached out to your friends and teammates but no one gave me whereabouts about you.
I tried talking to Miefer Angels but they didnt want to talk to me. I felt bad. I felt bad for myself realizing how jerk I was.
Now I dont know where to start. I dont know how to start.
I want to say sorry. Sorry to your family, I also hurt them when I hurt you. Sorry to your friends kase I was a jerk. Sorry to all our supporters because I disappointed them.
And I am sorry to you. I hurt you. I left you. I was a total assh*ole.
Paano kita pababalikin sa akin? Pano ko mapapatunayan sayong ikaw pa rin pala?
Almost three months after I left, you have moved on, obviously. Pero eto ako, I dont know how I survived a day without even a glimpse of you.
They say, walang forever. But how can that be possible when my forever is You.
I love you. I still do.
Your Ex,
#15
