I was checking updates on twitter and one tweet caught my attention. "@thefaultinyou: Wala sabi ko nga kanina. Pagdapa ka at hinanap mo yung taong sinanay ka may nakakaalalay sayo,kaso wala na no bruh? Eh di madapa ka ng tuluyan"
That's what's happening to me. Kase nung anjan pa siya, well, I took her. I took her for granted.
Fans rant me on twitter pero wala akong sinagot kahit ni isa. Paano ba naman kasi, kasalanan ko naman talaga kung bakit nawala siya. Pero ayoko ng ulit-ulitin. Kahit anong gawin ko, kahit pagbalig-baligtarin pa ang mundo, ako talaga ang nagkulang. Ako ang mali, ako talaga ang may kasalanan.
Though sawang-sawa na ko sa lahat ng sisi ng mga fans na sumuporta sa amin nung kami pa, wala akong magawa. I deserved to be bashed. I deserved their anger, I deserved their disappointments. "Pero di ba nila alam na sobrang nasasaktan din ako?", I asked myself, "Malamang hindi."
And I heard someone talked at my back. "Ly?"
She smiled. Her usual sweet smile. Bakit ngayon ko lang napansin all along na okay din pala tong si Aly? "Musta, Phenom?", she asked.
I didnt answer her though, ngumiti lang ako. She tapped her hand on my back to console me, "Matatapos din yan.", she said.
"Kailan?"
"Choice mo yan, Kief kung magpapatalo ka sa emotions mo o wag mong pansinin na nasasaktan ka. Youll get to it eventually at hindi mo namamalayan na ok kana. Sanay ka na na wala siya. Sanay ka na na walang ibang nag aalaga sayo. Masasanay ka din na wala na siya sa tabi mo. Saka marami dyan sa tabi-tabi no." I looked at her and she smiled again.
"Naniniwala akong marami nga dyan sa tabi-tabi, Ly."
I went home after our practice and its been 2 days now after our official break up. Nagkakagulo sa twitter kase madaming screencaps about our separation. I read some of those.
miefer shipper din kayo?
when they were together :)
Tin
Galit po ba kayo kay kiefer?
were not. were disappointed.
Kim
I, myself, was disappointed too. I broke as precious as Mika's heart. Pero ang pagsisisi ko nga ay abot hanggang langit.
I scrolled some more and I saw Aly posted something about NBA wherein she has a picture of her facing the wall with her jesrey on and beside her is Yao Ming of Houston Rockets. I typed in my reply, "@AlyssaValdez2 Pinanindigan mo talaga yang Heat, Ly!" and I posted my tweet.
After a few my notification just exploded. Alam ko na kung bakit. For sure madaming nagreact sa tweet ko for Aly. And then there's a notification that I have a DM from Aly. "Pst. Where you?"
"House. You?"
"House too."
"Tara, Eastwood.", I asked her. Wala naman sigurong masama di ba? I am single and so is she.
"Okay. See you in an hour.", I closed my twitter went to my bathroom and fixed myself. Friendly date with the Phenom, not bad though.
Aly and I decided to meet at Starbucks inside Eastwood Mall. Mas okay na kase dun, since nasa taas yung place, mejo tago siya. Unlike dun sa kabilang starbucks beside 1880 building, masyadong madaming tao. And to think Aly is a very famous personality.
We had our coffee and talked about so many things but our love lives. She didnt ask about me and Mika so I decided not to ask about hers and Alfred.
We were both cheeking our twitter when I saw Aby Marano's tweet:
"@Abymarano: The God is close to the brokehearted and saves who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18 ♥ @mikareyess you are loved "
What does she mean by her tweet? Mika's brokenhearted after breaking my heart? Crushed in spirit?? Is she??
"@BabesBolick: In the end you tried and cared and sometimes that is enough @mikareyesss love ka pa rin namin ni @Abymarano ♥"
I was thankful because Mika's friends never ever left her. They were their all the way. When she was happy with me, they celebrated it. When she got broken hearted because of me, they were her heroes who rescued her from an evil named Kiefer.
Pero ako, wala ng natira sa akin. Pauly unfollowed me in Twitter. Tama kase yung hinala ng iba eh, na nag iba ang pakikitungo ni Pauly sa akin since this shit happened. Nawalan na ako ng mahal, wala pa kong kaibigan.
I looked at Aly na nagbabasa din ng tweets while zipping her Frappe, Siya na lang yata ang natitira sa akin.
She
"@kimfajardo09: Broken Vow. The lyrics doe. @mikareyesss"
We're still in Iligan City and we just got back to the hotel from an adventure in Tinago Falls. Guys, alam niyo ba na Tinago falls is more than 80,000 ft deep and there's like a stair there more than hundreds of steps. Pero kahit anong pagod, worth it pagdating sa falls. Kahit nakkatago siya, sobrang ganda niya.
"Anong meron sa lyrics nung kanta, Kim? Lakas maka meteor garden nito ah!", we laughed. "Feeling nostalgic ba?"
Bwisit to si Kim, binatukan ako. "Baliw, pakinggan mo kase hindi ying salita ka ng salita."
Tell me her name, I want to know
The she looks and where you go?
I need to see her face, I need to understand,
Why you and I came to an end?
"Oh, tapos?", I asked Kimmy in disbelief.
"Bagay sa inyo yung kanta."
"Pano naging bagay? Eh anlayo ng sitwasyon namin ngayon sa kantang yan."
"San at kelan nga ba nag-umpisa yung pagiging cold niya?"
"Sa SG nung SEA Games.", I answered her. "Busy DAW kase siya sa basketball niya."
"Ye, nung nag-usap kayo ni Kiefer two days ago, alam mong naging bias ako kase kung ako ang tatanungin, mas ok siguro na binigyan mo siya ng chance. Pero alam mo namang loyal ako sayo, di ba?", she asked and I nodded, "Pero kung mahal ka niya talaga, kahit busy siya, he'll find time. Not unless mas mahal niya yung kinabibusyhan niya."
"Mas mahal niya yung basketball kaysa sa kin.", I answered. Well, alam ko namang hindi lang basketball ang pinagkaabalahan niya sa SG nun. May mga nababalitaan din akong iba. Ayoko lang tanggapin at aminin sa sarili ko na pinagpalit niya nga talaga ako.
"Sure kang basketball lang?", Kim asked.
Napaisip ako sa sinabi ni Kim. Madaming nagsasabi sa twitter na nakadikit daw si Kiefer sa isang player ng volleyball when they were still in SG for Sea Games. But I ignored that kase I was focus on how to heal my heart.
Kim showed me something on her phone after a minute. I read what it says. "Sabi sayo hindi bagay yung kanta sa akin eh,
Kasi kilala ko yung babae, I know how she looks, where she goes. Pero I cant still figure out, why we came to an end."
And my tears fell down.
