I feel heavy.
I feel as though there is pressure building inside me, that never has before.
The silence is excruciatingly loud.
As contradictive as that sounds.
The pressure is so immense that I find I'm stuck to the black void beneath me. Forced to lay down and stare up at it- Max, is gone. The other me, gone.
Much as she predicted, I'm stuck here now, alone.
My chest hurts.
My head hurts.
My entire body.
Just hurts.
Thinking...hurts.
Is this....
What....
Dying....
Feels...
Like...
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The low sound of electrical humming fills the space around me. A low buzzing from...ceiling lights?
Perhaps.
Also fills the space.
I feel- cold.
But not all of me.
Mostly, my face and arms.
It's hard, heavy- but my eyelids slowly open and my vision is blurry.
Extremely blurry.
Through the blurriness though, I recognize the hospital's tan bland walls and nurse walking by. This bed is extremely uncomfortable...and the linens smell of bland detergents. Without moving my head, I search the room through half lidded eyes. It's hard to see anything though.
Everything seems, normal- I suppose.
Something touches my left hand and I jolt my head in that direction.
Instant pain.
"Mhmmmghhh..." I outwardly groan.
"Oh my God! Helen! Hey! Hi! Hi!" Max exasperatedly jolts up from his seat and though he is blurry, I can tell he seems concerned and yet elated. "Stay still...Okay? Just...just stay calm. ALLISON!"
He calls for a nurse and his hands never leave my left. I feel so stiff. My face feel heavy and my mouth feels almost wired shut- though I can tell it's not.
Just stiff.
"Dr. Goodwin? Oh!" A woman enters the room and then quickly hustles out again.
"Mmmm...." I feel my throat tightening, but I can't will myself to speak.
"Don't...just...don't speak. Vijay will be in shortly. You need to just try and stay still and calm, okay? It's okay." Why can't I move?
God!
Am I paralyzed?
Did I really just paralyze myself!!!
This is Hell!
"Mmmmhmmm!!" I groan again, but still can't speak. The heart monitor begins to pick up and Max turns the volume down.
"No...no, Helen, you need to relax- okay? Vijay's coming. I promise. Just breathe through your nose....slow deep breaths." He demonstrates and it makes me angry.
He's acting like I'm an idiot.
Well...
I mean...
I sort of am.
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What We Deserve
FanfictionPresented as an Alternate Universe, this story takes you through the twist and turns of what ifs-as well as what should have been for our favorite couple Max and Helen. What if the seasons were presented differently? What if certain people never di...
