G E M I N I

Blessing

I'm trying to keep my feet on solid ground

but my hearts unsteady, as I get ready

for another round of feeling down..

I feel like I'm drifting into space

ever since I lost my resting place

I made one mistake,

Now I'll have forever to repay

I hate that it always ends this way

Now im typing on a page cause my hearts in dismay.

I'm always left in pieces, entirely speechless

I didn't know you'd only be here for a season

because I loved you the same way you left, without reason

So why torture me with your absence as if I commited treason?

I'm haunted by your silence, so much so, that it turns me violent.

I'm patiently waiting for us to reunite

Everyday that you're gone, it keeps me up at night.

I know they say out of sight, out of mind

But,

I thought you were mine for a lifetime...

Letting you go left me numb and cold,

and made me realize that I'm alone..

You understood me on a deeper level,

but now I feel like everything was superficial.

I thought you saw me for me,

but maybe you were looking past me,

and I got in the way

My apologies for causing you
and the next person a delay.

You left upset and that's my biggest regret.

I would've liked for you to stay
since I placed my heart on display

It was yours to take
but you'd rather throw it away,

Why must you act this way?

You always told me you only
liked expensive things,

but I thought what we had was priceless?

So why treat me like I'm cheap shit

And no, Im not gay I just haven't been okay since you left me

My mind tries to fill me with remedies, but I just feel empty.

And you're worse than an enemy

because you were a friend to me, a sister, and I miss her.

How could you make me lose you
While you're still alive?

Now everything feels like a lie (am I really the bad guy?)

Will you answer me if I call or am I talking to a wall?

You'd think I'd be used to this

but nothing hurts more than being dismissed...

I changed your name and everything went up into flames

You taught me how fast things can change,

and how feelings are never the same.

I won't forget the lesson,

In one way or another you were always a blessing.