I pray for heaven
Like praying for lions to grow wings
Or autumn before springI will never understand
Why I was born in a failing body
Paying for some one else's sins
until I'm paying for my ownIf I was predestined to fail
Then gaining your Love was to tease me or test me?
You could patronize me all on you want
Do as you pleaseBut it would never stop me
from desiring you
For wanting to be apart
of your glorious body
But these are just wants
And these are just my needs
That I crave to be satisfied
Which is selfish of meI can't get close enough to touch you
With my filthy hands and dirty soulMy apologizes my King,
I'm still fighting against the skin
you placed me inI know these thoughts
shouldn't be divulged
And are probably forbidden
But if it devours my soul
Shouldn't I release
what's been torturing me?I fear being alone for too long
Cause I start sinking
in the pit of my despair
And I never liked the dark
your light has always guided me homeAnd I fear your peace
will only come after deathBut I want you to promise me
that I'd be leaving this earth
only to be with youBecause you are the only entity
that could quench my thirstAnd I fear my negligence has inflicted pain for the ones I love
I'm so negligent I forgot my existence cause living for myself never pleased me
But I'm well informed
that I flounder to get things right,
to get it together,
so things could get better.And I repent for denoting my feelings
They're always overlooked
and made invalidI was just venting to the only thing that would listen
Which is the silence
between my heart beating and pausingI would've preferred to be your puppet while you toy with my strings
At least I would've been more obedient
and less defiant.I hope that offer reaches your desk
and that my supplications are the ones next on your list
and not laid to restI pray that I'm never ungrateful
Because the taste of your grace
Makes me want to kiss you on your feet
Only if you'd let meAnd I hope my cries aren't in vain
But even so,
if they are
I am content
that they were for your affections.
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