Infinitely

I don't know how to tell you this, Charlotte

The first time I wake up it's just barely light outside. I'm not really sure what's going on until I've been to the bathroom and had a second to look at my phone. It's about 5am and Justin's not home yet. I get back in bed and try to get comfortable, planning to call him as soon as I'm settled.

But I must have fallen asleep before I could call because the next thing I know I'm waking up again and it's 7. This time I'm worried. What if something happened? Maybe he had too much to drink and got in an accident. Or worse, what if Sarah wanted him to take her back to Utah?

All the terrible possibilities run through my my mind and even though I'm worried I drift off to sleep again.

This time when I wake up it's to Justin kissing my forehead. I'm startled because I don't remember falling asleep again.

"Justin, it's 8:30!" I realize. He winces.

"I know," he sighs and moves to shut our bedroom door. "I'm sorry."

"Exactly what were you doing all night?" I have to fight to sit up. With all the pillows and my stomach in the way it's getting harder all the time to do things like I usually would. Justin pulls his shirt off and starts unfastening his pants.

"We went for food and then went for a little bit of a drive," Justin says. "I think Sarah's really sad."

"Well, yeah," I roll my eyes. "She's stuck in stupid Utah with her husband and his 5 other wives. Did you hear when we were talking and she said she's not on the pill?"

"No, all I heard was when you asked if she was pregnant," Justin sits down in front of me. "I'm glad she's not."

"Me too," I shudder. "I wonder how many kids they have."

"I don't want to think about it," Justin leans forward to kiss me. He doesn't taste like alcohol so I guess I worried for no reason. It's hard to stay mad at Justin for making me nervous when he's kissing me like this.

"Justin," I laugh as he starts kissing my neck.

"What?" he doesn't stop.

"Do you really want to do this now?" I can feel his lips on my collarbone.

"You have no idea how hot you look right now," Justin runs his hand up my side. "In this tiny little tanktop and just your panties."

"It was too hot for more clothes," I insist. "And it's not my fault my shirts don't fit anymore."

"Shh," Justin insists, pulling my shirt up so he can play with my nipples. I'd been really excited about whatever Justin brought me from the bagel shop but I'm definitely not thinking about food now.

"Here," I pull my shirt off so he has complete access. Justin gives me that grin of his and starts kissing me again.

"Just don't get too loud," Justin warns as he slips his fingers between my legs. I laugh but I really do try to keep it down. My hips push against his hand. "Slow down, Char," Justin says.

"Please," I beg him.

"Don't worry, you'll get there," Justin laughs.

He's right, of course, and since he takes his time it's so much more intense when I finally do feel that release. Justin goes slow when he gets inside me too and I can tell it's the same way for him.

"I love you," Justin whispers, his voice soft and sleepy now.

"Love you too," I tell him. He's already falling asleep but I'm wide awake now.

I get up and put some clothes on before I take my breakfast downstairs. I'm sure my sister's fast asleep too so I have pretty much all morning to myself. It gives me time to work on some of my homework.