Edge of Tonight

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The days of winter slowly pass, some days being sunny while others are pouring rain. Each day consists of growing closer to Alex, growing on the other guys, and learning the ropes of living with someone who is in the music industry. It's not a very easy task, because some days are consumed by music writing or practicing. It's also a really great place to be, especially if you love music. It's easy to learn about music and how it's made and where it comes from - unless the person doing the music gets bored, then he might scream out the lyrics to 'The Muffin Man' instead of any other songs.

On the days like those, I just watch Alex as he does what he loves, and start to feel more at home than I have anywhere else I lived. Today is a day like the ones previously stated. Until Alex abruptly stops what he's doing and turns to me.

He stares for a second, figuring out his next sentence. "You start school soon. In like two days. Which is soon."

I forgot all about that, and I start to freak out about the inevitable school day. I'll be the new kid again - it seems that no matter how many times I move or start at a new school, it's just as worrisome. I start to shake slightly, as the thought of going to have to make more friends and go through the "new kid" phase runs through my head. Which is probably the worst part about being new. You're observed and everyone makes impressions of you, even though you haven't talked to anyone. It is a bad stage. I hate it with my entire being.

I feel the cushion next to me sink, and a hand begin to rub my knee soothingly. "Hey, you'll be fine. They will all love you," Alex smiles. Comforting.

I sigh at him. "You were only the new kid once in your life, I believe. I've been the new kid dozens of times. Never gets any better."

He doesn't say anything, just steadily breathes. His calm breathing starts to calm me down as well. That doesn't exactly make me feel better, but at least I'm not on the verge of an anxiety attack.

"Oh! We have to go school shopping. Why don't you grab your shoes and we can go now? Hot Topic is the first place we will go to. Little Lexi can't go to school without new All Time Low merch!"

I laugh at him. "Buying your own merch. How classy." But I nod nonetheless and head to grab my shoes.

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I forgot how much stuff Hot Topic has, considering it has been well over a year since I came here last. When Alex and I first walk in, my eyes open in awe. I hear Alex chuckle at my reaction. I don't look at him, instead looking at every corner of the room.

"They have everything, don't they?" He laughs. I just laugh with him and nod. He's right, everything from Supernatural to Pierce The Veil. A dream store.

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Over an hour later, we finish our shopping spree. We practically buy half of Hot Topic (due to Alex's request - and by request I mean he shoves every nice article of clothing he sees at me). We went along to several other shops and got quite the wardrobe and school supplies. I insist upon Alex not to buy so much. "It's just school, it's not like I plan to participate," is the reason I tell him. This comment only earns me a glare and huff from Alex, along with the "like hell you aren't," muttered under his breath.

I follow Alex around like a lost puppy as he carries all the bags from today's shopping. He tells me I'm too "fragile" to carry the bags. So I do as told, letting him struggle to hold the bags, laughing at him.

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Arriving home, I'm assisted with putting all my new clothing and school items away. Alex hangs all the clothes up in the closet while I place my binder and school-essential items in my new Sherlock bag Alex bought for me.

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