Beauty with the Beast (Cast a Spell Series #1)

Chapter XVII

Him

She reminds me of my mom.

My mom loves sunset so much that she came to love the color yellow. Almost all her things was full of yellow things. Just like Arabelle.

Arabelle was a fierce woman, like my mom. Kung anong gusto niya, iyon ang sinusunod niya, she cares so much for the people she loves, she didn't care if her life would be in danger.

Fierce yet soft-hearted. Arabelle was a strong woman, and I admire her for that.

But when I saw her eyes looking at me the same way as my mom looks at my father, I was terrified.

I didn't want her to love me like how my mother loved my father.

Because I remind myself too much of my father.

I never wanted to be my father.

And I never wanted her to end up like my mother.

"Tangina. Wala ka pa ring balita?!" Galit kong sigaw kay Lumiere nang sabihin niyang wala pa rin siyang lead kung nasaan si Arabelle.

"W-Wala—"

Walang pag-aalinlangan kong inihagis sa harapan niya ang lamesang nasa harapan ko. Walang-wala ang bigat ng lamesa sa bigat ng nararamdaman ko. Malakas ang kalabog ng puso ko na para bang sinasakal nito ang hininga ko, hindi ko makontrol ang sarili ko at halos magdilim na lahat ng paningin ko. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang takot ng mga taong nasa paligid ko ngunit walang ibang magpapakalma sa akin hangga't hindi ko siya nahahanap.

Dalawang araw na ang nakalipas pero hindi pa rin siya bumabalik. I know I did something wrong but the outside is still dangerous for her to roam around! Hangga't hindi ko nakikita si Cara, delikado ang buhay niya! My father could mistake her for Cara and I never wanted that bastard to lay a single finger on her. 

"B-Baka bumalik na 'yon sa—"

"You think I'm dumb enough not to think that?! Of course I checked their old house! Wala siya, Lumiere!" Iritado kong sigaw na nagpatalon sa kaniya.

Tangina, alam kong hindi niya kasalanan pero hindi ko makontrol ang emosyon ko. Galit na galit ako sa sarili ko na gusto kong idamay lahat ng taong nakikita ko ngayon. Imbes na mag-aksaya ng galit, nagmartsa ako palabas ng kuwarto. It's already past midnight but who cares about the stupid fucking clock when my beauty's missing and is in danger.

"Rix." I called the moment I step a foot outside.

A man in black appeared in front of me with his black mask on. I signaled him to follow me and he nodded. The men in black are cold the black wolf, I build them to protect certain people but they failed to protect the most important people I cherish. I should've punished them the first time they failed to protect Cara, then they should've protected Arabelle better. 

But I've got not time to punish them. Kapag nakita ko na si Arabelle, sisiguraduhin kong magsisisi sila kung bakit hindi nila binantayan ng mabuti si Arabelle. 

Sa kakahuyan kung saan ko siya huling nakita, doon muli ako pumunta, nagbabakasakali na makita siyang muli. 

But fuck it. It's been three days and I never got the chance to return home. Si Rix nalang ang naghahatid ng kakainin ko but most of the time, I'd refuse to eat something. If only I don't need the energy to find her, then I wouldn't dare eat a single food, thinking she might be eating none.

"Rix." I called when the night came, and another day I failed to find her.

"Boss." Sumulpot siya sa likod ko, I tried my best not to fucking punch his face. How incompetent.