The Diary Of A Misfit Kid

I Just Wanna

Feb 22, 2024

I just wanna be comfortable in my own skin again

Let the world know theres a man deep inside this scared little kid

That was never shown love and acceptance that every child needs

I just wanna make the ones that have hurt me bend on their knees

Beg and plead for forgiveness like they did me but what would it solve.

Have i evolved from this trauma they gave me?

Is the road I paved the one thats going to keep me in good grace

Or will i still always be fighting in fear of being replaced

I just wanna be loved for me and not the dollar signs in my bank account

Scream from the roof top love that i always dreamed about

Instead of screaming from dreams that make me want to kill myself

With the pills they prescirbed that just make me manic

Chronic pain on level ten, I just wanna be normal again

So I write with this pen like it will bring it all to an end

Let me spend my years in happy tears and laughter

Never thinking of the ever after

Just of today and the things i can create

I just wanna make a world safe for the next kid feeling like me

Whos life been filled with trauma since the age of three

These memories give me some relief to a degree

As the are a reminder of who I used to be

And who I do not wish to become

Like my father on the run

Or like my mother thinking the sun revolves around them

I just wanna be a part of a group and feel like i matter

I just wanna know what its like to actually be happy

The sound of laughter never sound fake

I just wanna be away from all this hate

Even in a different state,

Rather it be physically, mentally, or spirtually

I just wanna know the other side of me.