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Chapter 37: A Sprinkle Of Hope?

It's been a while since I updated yes.

I have 2 reasons for that:

1. I wanted to reach 1k reads.

2. I didn't want to bother anyone with my dramatic negative life.

It's silly, I know, but still... My life could be a book, which it kinda is now, but a book where you don't now if it will have an happy ending. I guess I am just really scared of that. That I won't get my happy ending.

Anyways! I haven't been doing that great. I have been feeling really depressive to the point where I didn't have any motivation for drama anymore.

This is a REALLY big deal since drama is my life. It's my everything. And if I loose motivation for that, that also means I loose my motivation for life and that is not good. I felt scared, since I know I would never do such a thing as commit suicide or cut myself, but I did feel like I was dying. I have to drag myself through each day again and it's torture since my parents and sisters and other people messed so much with my head that I slowly start to believe it...

That I am nothing. No one. Not worth a single thing. That I am a monster. That I am the one abusing them and not otherwise. That I deserve to be treated like trash. To be all alone.

I can't give more information then that I am working on things. I am making sure I am safe and have some people to go to when things go wrong again. I am making sure I have people to talk to and I am going to get a way out of this situation. It won't be easy since I am all on my own, but I won't hesitate to make it happen. So with that giving me hope I am doing a bit better. Not much, but every little spark is still a little sprinkle of hope.

I too have been writing a lot. Not of chapters here or other posted books, but I am trying to get better writing skills and well I have too much ideas for too much books I can't all write. I am working hard on that and I am hoping that I can soon please you all with a brand new and finished book. It won't go fast, but I will try to see what I can do. You can always ask for requests or a new chapter in one of my books, but I can't promise anything.

and then one last thing:

THANK YOU FOR 1K READSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!