Kismat Connection♡

Samyuktha

What does it feel like to have silence when you are constantly surrounded by nightmares? This continuous chase is stopped for the first time. I am not able to put into words what I am feeling at this moment, cannot say that it's peace but similar to peace. But but but, it's squeezing me really tight. And something is pointing in my neck, really irritating. Now that my senses are activating, I can hear birds chirping, someone speaking from a distance but most importantly, someone is close, very close that I can hear his breathing.

I immediately opened my eyes and the first thing in the morning I saw a man dangerously close to me, his face hiding in my neck and his arms and legs tightly around my waist and legs. I can't breathe, I felt as if I had been trapped and with all my power I jerked his body and he fell down, nice job Samy.

I heard him groaning and immediately recognised the voice, it's someone I know, oh wait I remember what happened yesterday. He is the man my cousin left at the altar and now my husband . He groaned again and I immediately pushed my face into the pillow so that he wouldn't see me. I waited and stayed in the same position till he left the room. God, my neck is breaking.

Marriage was not in my life for the next fifteen years at least. I had so much left to do and this marriage definitely ruined all of the plans I made. Now some will think I am such a hypocrite . Last time I was crying when he was getting married to Ruhi didi and now also crying when he is married to me.

Liking him was one thing and yes at some point I might have thought of us getting together but the possibility was less than 0.000000001% and also he is someone I don't wish to entangle, you know that small crush liking from afar and being happy.

But now that I am married it has shuffled all of my cards. This harmless crush can turn into something dangerous and knowing upcoming events everything is messed up now. What I had planned for the future will be changed now that I am his wife?

But most importantly will I be able to accept him as my husband remembering all the events that have happened in my life till now? Will he be able to accept me if he ever gets to know about me? The real me that I have kept hidden for all these years. So many questions but answers are none. Only time will decide in the future. I was in my thoughts when I heard a knock.

I was jerked back to reality, wow. I got up and realized that Rudraksh had already left. And my mother was knocking on the door even though it was open. She came towards me with a bag in her hands.

“ Good morning, did you sleep well last night?"

All my sleep, questions and thoughts were gone hearing my mother. She looks normal not like yesterday in so much anger. Yesterday she was all aag babula but now she is all Shanti priya.

“Morning to you too, what happened? Aapka gussa thanda ho Gaya kya? Bade shaant lag rahe ho."
(Has your anger cooled down? You look very calm.)

She glared at me, ok still not over, I did not want to listen to the lecture early in the morning. I mumbled sorry.

“Get ready, tumhari vidaai ka time ho raha hai.”
(Get ready, it's time for you to leave.)

I looked at her, how did she manage to look so beautiful early this morning? She looks so soft I just want to hug her tightly so I did. I could say that she was expecting this and hugged me back. She stroked my hair gently,

“Deep ki baaton ko dil se mat lena, tum toh jaanti apne papa ko, saara Ghar sar pe chada lete hai, unke liye tum kitni anmol ho, itni minnato ke baad jo tum hume mili thi, apni jaan se jyada tum dono ko pyaar karte hai, thoda time do unko, I am sure he will accept Rudraksh and bachcha you know you can tell us anything, so whenever you are ready to talk to us we will always there for you.”