I'm Sorry (Gabriel Conte)

Chapter 1

Lily's POV

"Class, we have a new student. His name is Gabriel." My math teacher announced.

I looked up and saw a good looking boy. He was tall, handsome, and his eyes were the perfect shade of brown.

Snap out of it Lily. You know he will never love a girl like you. I thought to myself.

I looked down my cardigan and saw all of the new cuts I made last night. I rubbed my fingers against them and bit my lip.

I then heard the chair next to me move and I quickly pulled me sleeve down and looked over and saw Gabriel sitting next to me.

"Hi. I'm Gabriel." He sand holding out his hand.

"Lily." I said grabbing his and shaking his hand.

He smiled and I grinned.

God his smile is perfect.

He kept looking at me and I kind of felt awkward.

After math was done, I walked to lunch and sat at the table that I normally sit at and just sat there. I was always alone at school. I had no one.

I then heard someone sit down across from snapping me out of my thoughts. It was Gabriel.

I smiled at him and he smiled back.

"So I have a question." He said.

"Okay." I said.

"Why are you alone?" He asked concerned.

"Well uhm, you might think I'm stupid for saying this but, I have no friends." I said shyly and quietly.

"Come on. You have to have a ton of friends." He said.

I shook my head sadly.

He looked at me with sad filled eyes and he gave me a little smile.

"You don't have to stay here with me you know. You can go hang out with other people who actually wanna talk." I said shrugging my shoulders.

"But I wanna stay here with you." He said.

I looked at him with and 'are you being for real right now' look.

He smiled and laughed before we kept talking.

"So how come you're not eating?" He asked.

I had to make up a lie. He couldn't known that I starve myself.

"School food is gross." I said.

He nodded in agreement.

"Here take this." He said handing me a cup of Jello.

"Oh no no no I can't." I said.

"Just take it. At least you won't be starving all day." He said.

I took the jello cup from him and took and small bite out of it. I kept eating smaller bites.

"I'm full." I said lying through my teeth.

He nodded and then kept eating.

"I'll be back in a sec. I have to go to the bathroom." I said.

"Okay." He said smiling at me.

I ran to the bathroom, shut a stall door and leaned over the toilet. I can't eat this. I hate how he did that me.

I finished throwing up the food and cleaned myself up before going back to the table Gabriel

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By the end of the day, I was ready to get home and take a nap.

But Gabriel started walking with me.

We talked a lot and it made the walk home seem a lot faster than it normally is

"Wait you live right here?" He asked.

I nodded my head and he looked surprised, I live right there." He said pointing to his house which was right next to mine.

I smiled and nodded.  I kind of hoped his window was next to mine and then I wish it wasn't.

When I walked up to my room, I went to my bathroom and grabbed my razor. I sat on my bed and slid it across my skin. I wathed as the blood dripped from my arm onto my towel. I slid it across my forearm, legs, amd stomach. After I felt satisfied, I cleaned myself up and sat back down on my bed and read my book for English.