I'm Sorry (Gabriel Conte)

Chapter 38

Lily's POV

"No it's snowing!" I yelled like a little kid.

Gabe came up and gave me a hug from behind as I pouted like a little kid.

"I really wanted to go to the lake." I said.

"Well it is that time of year." Gabe said chuckling.

I lightly laughed before walking upstairs.

"Well what do you wanna do now?" I asked.

"I don't care." Gabe said.

I glared at him before messing around on my phone. Then when I got bored, I looked up Panic! at the Disco tour dates. You know, just in case.

I almost had a heart attack when I saw that they were coming on the day of Graduation.

Fuck. I really want to go to the concert, but then I really want to graduate.

I then realized that graduation is at twelve in the afternoon and the concert starts six.

Gee I'm smart.

"Hey Gabe." I said.

He glanced over at me, but then looked back at his phone.

"Do you think you can take to a Panic! at the Disco concert in June?" I asked like a little kid.

Geez I'm talking like a baby a lot today.

When I looked at Gabe, he didn't even look like he heard me.

I sighed before walking downstairs, grabbing my jacket and boots, putting my phone in pocket, and grabbing my keys and walked out to my car.

Why would Gabe be ignoring me. I'm not trying to be a selfish girlfriend when I say that. It just bugs me that he didn't even listen when I asked him a question.

Why would Gabe listen to you. You are annoying.

I was shocked by what I just said in my head. I shook my head and pulled out of the driveway and drove around town for a little bit.

Come on Lily. You need to understand that Gabe is only helping you because he feels bad for you. He doesn't care about you. He could care less about you.

I tried pushing my thoughts out of my head but they wouldn't leave.

You know what's in your pocket. You could stop and do it right now and no one would notice.

I hesitantly reached into my jacket pocket and pulled out my blade.

Why is this still in here.

I pulled into an empty parking lot and just looked at the silver blade in my hand.

I dare you to do it!

I took my jacket off with shaky hands before sliding the cold piece of metal against my skin.

I bit my lip and let out a small cry. When I finally got used to it, I cut both of my wrists. I couldn't stop.

You could go to the park uptown. There's and edge there you could jump off of.

I started crying. Why am I thinking these horrible things? What is going on with me?

I drove to the park uptown and saw the edge.

If you do it. You could finally drown us out. You wouldn't have to deal with us anymore.

And they wouldn't have to care for you anymore. Gabe, Sofia, Nico, Louis. They would be happy that you're gone.

I felt tears streaming down my face as I unbuckled my seatbelt and got out of my car.

Do it Lily. Do it.

I slowly walked to the edge and looked over. I saw the freezing winter water going crazy.

Go a head Lily. If you jump, you'll be happy.

When I put my right foot over the edge, I heard a voice call my name.

"LILY!" I turned around to see Gabe with tear stained eyes, but it was too late I tumbled forward and while I was falling, it felt like slow motion. Then when I hit the water, everything went blank.

Gabe's POV

"LILY!" I yelled.

She looked back at me but before I could do anything, she fell over the edge.

"NO!" I yelled.

I ran to the edge and heard a splash. I felt the tears streaming down my face as I stood there motionless.

I then decided to call Louis.

"Louis meet me down at Brooklyn Park. But meet me by the water." I said before hanging up.

I then decided to do something risky. I dove in.

Hey guys. Sorry for the sad chapter, but this chapter leads onto a whole thing in the next few chapters. So keep reading. Love ya lovelies😘)