𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐁𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝

47

Mila

I hear the front door open and quickly make my way downstairs where my babies walk inside, I run over and wrap my arms around them as I begin sobbing. "I was so worried." I cry as they hold me back.

"Don't be sad Mommy," Cade says.

"I'm sorry, I just missed you guys so much." I sniffled against them, I looked up at Serge and Dario. "Thank you for bringing them home," I tell them and they nod.

"We wouldn't let anything happen to them, you know that," Serge says as I nod as I hold my babies tighter as the guys make their way into the house.

"We didn't mean to scare you, Mommy," Isa says and I shake my head.

"No, you guys didn't do anything wrong, I was just worried..." I tell them and I look around for Gio who is nowhere to be found, I frown. "Where's your dad?"

"He stayed behind." Cade frowns.

"He said he will be here soon."

I nod as I shut the door behind them. "Let's get you guys changed," I say and they nod as they kick their shoes off and walk upstairs.

I give them a quick shower and change them into their PJs, they watch some cartoons as I bring up some food for them, serge and Dario left a little while ago so they didn't stay to eat.

After a few hours, Gio was still not home and I was blowing up his phone but none of my messages were sent, after feeding the kids I put them to bed and went inside Gios room.

I began to clean up the mess I made earlier while I was looking for the gun that I found in the plant.

When I'm finished I sit on the bed curled up with my phone in my face, waiting for my messages to send.

My mind was racing, and I tried to make it stop, the thoughts that crept through my mind were scary.

I had to get out of here.

Stop.

I shut my eyes tightly as my hands ran through my hair trying to distract my mind from the thoughts.

-

A few hours pass and I'm woken up by a loud noise, looking up I notice that Gio is finally home. "You're back."

"Sorry for waking you up." He slurs as he shuts the door behind him, he kicks his shoes off along with his shirt and pants, my brows furrowed as I get out of bed and walk over to him, as soon as I step up the smell of alcohol fills my nostrils.

"You've been drinking?" I ask, he frowns. I grab his face and check his eyes, they weren't dilated so I assume he has just been drinking. "Why?" I ask him.

He doesn't speak. "Gio..." I say sadly.

"I'm sorry for disappointing you." He says as his hands run through his hair. "I'm such a-" his words catch and his cheeks puff up.

My brows furrow. "Okay hold on." I quickly realize he's about to puke all over me so I pull him into the bathroom where he lets the contents out into the toilet.

He tries to get up. "No, stay. Let it all out, I'll grab you some water." He sits down on the floor and continues to puke out his guts.

I bring the water up and have him chug it. "I'm so sorry Mila." He leans his head back against the wall, he was shitfaced drunk. "I'm such a fuck up, I ruined your life." He slurs.

"Stop it, I don't want to talk about this." I looked at him.

"You can't even deny it, because you know it's true..." I shut my eyes at the words. "I didn't mean for this to happen."

"Gio you're drunk, please stop."

"I know, I know, I'm sorry. I'm sorry... I'm sorry.." he drags out not realizing that he's repeating himself.

"I hate him so much Mila." His tone suddenly changes and I look up at him, my heart breaks as I watch the tears that well up in his eyes, Gio is not the type to cry, I never even thought the man had it in him to show any sign of emotion. "He ruined my life, and now I ruined your life... and my kid's life... 'm just like him." His hands pound against his head. "I'm just like him. Just like him. Just. Like. Him."

I begin to cry before I'm on the floor next to him and pulling his body towards mine as I begin to hug him. "Why did he do this to me..." he cries as his hands wrap around me.

I blink my tears away as I run my fingers through his hair. "You're nothing like him Gio... Nothing."

"This is all my fault... I just want him dead."

"I know... I know.." I comfort him as I hold him closer. "It's okay."

-

After Gio was done puking he sobered up a tiny bit, I helped him take a shower and put on some briefs before helping him to bed, he was still drunk out of his mind, but just a bit less.

We both lay on the bed, facing the ceiling, it was quiet for a moment before he began to speak. "Remember the night we met?" He asks, I'm pulled out of my trance as I hear the words, and turning my head to look at him I nod. "I knew I wanted you from the moment I saw you, I saw something in you..."

I chuckle at that. "You're shitfaced."

He giggles. "Yeah.... But seriously. I knew from the moment I laid eyes on you, that I had to have you, and not just to fuck you." He says and I cringe at the words. "I wanted more.."

"Then why did you leave?" I ask quietly.

"Because I'm a fuck up, I was young and stupid, but I knew you deserved better than me, I guess I was right."

I sigh.

"I couldn't even look at other women let alone fuck another woman for about two years after that night, you invaded my mind, Mila." Now that I found it surprising.

"Seriously? You? No sex for two years? I don't believe it."

"Ask anyone. Even I wouldn't believe it if I didn't live through it." He chuckles. "The first time I hooked up with a girl after that, I called her Mila."

"Okay, now you're fucking with me." I laugh and he shakes his head, no sense of humor in his words as he spaces out.

"I'm serious, she slapped me so fucking hard."

I laughed at that so hard my stomach began to hurt, he turned his head as he watched me laugh at what he had to go through.

He smiles a little at the sight. "So beautiful." He says and I sober up as my tummy fills with butterflies.

I blush at that and turn my head away, I can't fall for this man more than I already have, not after what happened today, it was too dangerous.

But I couldn't deny the fact that I was already in love with him, this was hard enough as it is.

"You should rest... you're going to wake up with a headache."

"I hate hangovers." He frowns. "But I don't want to sleep yet." He says and I look over at him.

"You have to."

"Fine, just one more thing." He reaches over and places his hand on my cheek as he pulls himself towards me and connects his lips to mine.

My heart breaks a little when I feel it, I shut my eyes and let him kiss me as I begin to kiss him back, deep down knowing this is going to be one of the last times I ever feel his lips on mine.

He pulls away and furrows his brows. "What's wrong?"

I shake my head. "Just tired."

"Good night then." He smiles.

"Night," I say as I turn over and shut my eyes trying to slow my racing heart, I shut my eyes tightly to stop myself from crying.

I had to do this.