𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐁𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝

48

Mila

I couldn't sleep for the rest of the night, Gio was asleep next to me, I looked over at him and the guilt inside of me continued to build.

I packed mine and the kid's bags but I was finding it hard actually to go through with it and to leave, I had to do it, I can't stay here knowing what's to come for Cade what he has to take on.

I don't blame Gio for it but I can't stay here with him and let this happen, he has no way out, I know that, but Cade does.

He begins to stir awake and my heart races, his hand lands on his head. "Fuck." He groans as his eyes catch mine, I smile sadly and he catches it as he furrows his brows.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing I was just worried," I tell him.

"About me?" He asks and I nod.

"Here," I grab the water and Advil from the bedside table handing it to him. "To help with the headache." He takes the medicine and chugs the glass of water before sitting it beside him on the table.

"Thank you," he says as he lays back down with an arm over his head, he yawns.

"You should go back to sleep," I tell him and he turns to look over at me. "It will help."

"Come here," he says, I shove my guilt down and lay down next to him, he wraps an arm around me pulling me closer. "What's going on?"

"Hmm?"

"You seem... off.." he says as he moves a piece of hair out of my face and behind my ear. "I'm sorry about what happened." He says I could tell even saying the words hurt him.

"I don't blame you for what you did, I'm just shaken up." That was the truth, I didn't blame Gio, he was trying to protect his son but that doesn't help the fact that it's done.

"Are you sure?" He asks, I swallow a lump in my throat and nod.

He begins to talk but I cut him off as I grab his face and pull it towards my own, I shut my eyes tightly and ignore the pain I feel in my throat as he deepened the kiss.

His hands drag down to my ass gripping my cheeks tightly before pulling me towards him, I continued to kiss his as my fingers ran through his hair.

The kiss was painful, and heartbreaking because I knew that this kiss was goodbye.

And he didn't.

I'm sorry.

I wanted to tell him but I knew that whatever he says will drag me right back in, my love for him was too strong to tell him no if he asked me to stay, so I had to do this.

His hand is on my waist as I slowly pull away from the kiss and look at him, he has a slightly confused look on his face. "That felt so..." he looks into my eyes. "Are you sure you're okay?"

I knew he could sense my sadness but still, I nodded and smiled. "Everything's fine, get some rest."

He wraps his arms tightly around me as he shuts his eyes, almost as if he knew I was going to leave and he was trying to hold me here with him forever, and it almost worked.

But the second his breathing evened out I slowly pried out of his stronghold, I looked at him one last time. "I love you..." I whispered knowing he would never hear it coming out of my mouth, I shut my eyes to stop myself from crying and made my way to the kid's room where they were sound asleep.

I didn't want to confuse them anymore than they already were but sometimes a mother has to make these hard decisions.

The guilty feeling comes crawling back, I'm going to be taking these kids away from their father, and their father away from them right after they finally found out who he was.

Fuck.

I slowly shake the kids awake and it takes a while for them to get up finally. "What's going on?" Isa groans as she rubs her eyes.

"Mommy?" Cade asks.

"We're going on a little trip, come on you guys have to brush your teeth and get dressed."

"Where are we going!" Isa jumps up from her bed. "Is daddy coming?" She looks around the room for her father and my heart breaks at that as I shake my head.

"No baby, it's just us... come on we have to hurry so we're not late."

"Mom I'm tired." Cade whines and I frown at the as I help him out of bed and into the bathroom.

"I know baby, you can sleep in the car, please get ready for me?" I ask him and he nods as he rubs his eye holding a stuffed dog in his arm.

"Is shadow coming with us?" He asks and I look at the big green dog that is sleeping at the end of his bed and I shake my head.

"Daddy will watch him for us, come on."

They brush their teeth and I help them get dressed, pulling my phone out of my pocket I call an Uber and go downstairs with the kids.

Staying quiet as possible I grabbed all of our luggage and went outside. "It's cold." Isa frowns.

"The car is almost here baby."

"Why can't Daddy come with us?" She whines.

"He has to stay here and work, you know he's busy." I lied and felt horrible about it.

"Mommy my shoe feels weird," Cade says as he kicks at the concrete.

"Mommy, when are we coming back?"

"Is Sergio and Dari coming with us?"

"Where's the car Mommy I'm sleep!"

My head is spinning and I sigh of relief when the car finally comes around the corner, a part of me forgot how hard it was managing two twins on my own, that's one thing the life I had here made easier.

I take one final look at the house before loading the car and the kids.

I made a stop at the bank where I withdrew a couple of thousand dollars from the card Gio gave me a while back, if I was leaving I was going to have to be untraceable.

I toss the card into a nearby trash can and get back into the car as the man drives us to the train station.

"Look Isa we're going on a train!" Cade says excitedly.

"Best trip ever!" She squeals.