🖤Skin To Skin.🖤

Chapter THIRTY

(DEAN'S POV)

I was deeply upset while realizing what Larona did to me. As crazy as I may sound, my heart was breaking. I felt like killing her with my bare hands however deep inside me, the little boy who've needed the kind of love like hers was saddened by the massive betrayal. I guess how I displayed my emotions at her place, it revealed a deep pain that I thought I buried it long time ago.

Whenever I thought of how my talk with Zain transpired, my anger rises up like a thermometer.. My mind together with my heart were in deep conflict with each other.

It felt as if one was against the other on different kinds of truth from this situation. On one hand, my goal was to end her life with him so that both of their blood pays off the heartbreak as well as the reputation it cost me. On the other hand, the truth of the matter is that I hate admitting to feel miserable because I failed to love righteously as a man.

My history with Larona was more than just making memories while we dated.

Her presence reminds me of my late mother's love. The kind of love whereby it was safe for a young man to kneel down with tears on his eyes and silently breathe in sorrow when life turns against his spirit. All she had to do was listen to understand me soulfully while she comforts me.

We were once a happy couple. With Larona by my side, I felt like the champion. I knew who I had by my side because she is wise, nurturing, kind and surely has the best forbidden fruit a man could ever dream of tasting.

When my trail of thoughts gradually fades away in my mind and I feel present in reality, I look around my mansion and the ambiance feels
empty. Darkness of energy was filled in a place that I call home. I slowly began to walk around my house while I process my situation. Eventually, my eyes spotted a picture of Larona's graduation photo. I instantly remembered the mood of that day.

It was joyful. It was a moment where a person feels God's presence in the joy a family and friends share. I was a proud boyfriend that day. It was the moment I made a declaration with myself that I will be her husband one day. My feelings physically made me sick and I smashed the photo frame on the floor.

"Aaaaaarrrgggghhh!!! She fucking left me and there's nothing I can do about it!!!" I exclaimed in frustration and i caught myself looking at a large oval designed mirror. I breathed long enough to calm myself down while I stare at myself. 

I decided to reach for my phone inside my pocket to call someone who can address my move to this situation.

Him and I came to agreed with our little scheme to mess up Zain's business building. By the end of the call, I poured myself some strong liquor to soothe my throat.

After a while I hear someone knocking my door. I went over to open it and found myself starring at Masesi.

"You are such a creep." I said to her from feeling bored. She walks herself inside the house. I turn to her just for the sake of hearing what is she here for this time around.

"Okay Please let's just pause right now and run this through like fucking adults. My reason to be here right now is to talk about you this moment. Dean I know you well. We won't shit around with disrespecting each other from defensiveness. We will hear each other out while we unpack with your demons." she said without showing any doubt while she directly looks at me.

I felt heavy as I watched her and I turned my back on her. She stood still for a moment and then said." Ignoring me won't help anything. You know this is not who you are Bro. I cannot stand you most of the time because of your ego but you know damn well that you messed up this relationship too. So many times that it literally drains her mental health. What is it with you!?!"

" I fucking took advantage of her love okay? I get it. I just don't want to lose her. " I confessed." Well news flash, you lost her for good. What I actually what to understand Dean is that since when did you change to become an abusive drunk who's comforts himself with evil behavior? " Masesi boldy asked me

" Is that what you see when you look at me?" I lowered my voice while I spoke to her. Her eyes rolls at me and steps forward to stand closer to me.
" Let me tell you something from my heart. I genuinely had faith in you to love my best friend because you were a man of God. A man of true character and protector. Your presence before was clean and right now with the life that you instantly changed for your love of money, it turned you into a hungry lion that devours blood on its face. Dean you need serious healing. I told you u this before and look at you now. "

I looked back at her feeling numb and my body was towering her height.  I closely look at her eyes and said,

"I'm sorry for insulting you. Hitting me with a lamb was a weak move. In all honesty.. I don't think or even care about my past life. Money is my thing and I fucking take pride it. If I'm a lion to you then shit you better run away from me before I will do something I will regret. Larona your lovely bitch called a bestie isn't going anywhere under my watch. I lived my life and worked my ass off for that bitch together with myself fucking live our dream plan. She's mine for a purpose Masesi. You think I will let it go because Zain hit it? Please save your energy and walk out of my door. "