Navigating Hearts ( Aviation College Series #1)

Chapter 30

I condemned myself for the idiotic act I did last Wednesday. I admit I was really irrational for letting my emotions control me. Frustrations took over me that I forgot how to keep my cool. Ano na lang kaya ang mukhang ihaharap ko sa mga kasamahan ko sa opisina?

“She’s the General’s Daughter.”

I was peacefully enjoying my lunch break alone when William joined me. Mula sa sementong upuan na inuupuan ko ay tanaw ko si Aeros at ang kaniyang girlfriend na nakikipag-usap sa ibang Air force Officers.

“I didn’t ask.”

William laughed. “And I know you’re curious.”

“Stop making things up, Engineer Guzman.” I spat. I sipped on my non-coffee Vanilla drink.

“Don’t worry, she’s just an acquaintance,” He continued, renouncing my annoyance. “Aeros met her during board review. Lei was helping him during his review sessions and later on, they became really close.”

I stayed focus on observing Aeros and Lei. I noticed every small details that Aeros would do for her. Kagaya na lamang ng simpleng pag-alalay sa likod ng babae tuwing naglalakad sila at sa tuwing pagbukas ng pintuan para sa babae.

Things he’d do for me before. I shook my head upon realizing things. There’s no need to reminisce over the past that has already done now. He lied to me, he lied to protect his friend, he chose his friend over me despite him knowing that she was a like a threat to me. And I left because life made me do it. I left because I needed to survive.

Sa kaniya na mismo nanggaling na wala siyang pakialam sa’kin. Why would he even care in the first place? How ironic, I should really stop thinking nonsense now.

“Lei is a nice person, kaya nga siguro nakagaanan siya ng loob ni Aeros.”

I remained silent.

“We’re somehow thankful to her for taking care of our friend.” I felt his gaze on me. “ I don’t know if I have the right to say this, but Aeros..”

Lumingon ako sa kaniya. He is now looking at the two persons we are talking about.

“He really suffered a lot, Liharra. Wala man akong alam sa nangyari sa’yo but I’m glad you’re here now. Aeros, I know deep down his heart, he still cares for you.” He let out those words like he was so sure of it.

“He clearly told me he doesn’t care anymore. Mas mabuti ng ganito, William, trabaho lang. No expectations, no disappointments.” Saad ko. “At nakikita ko rin naman kung paano niya pahalagahan si Lei, I think it would be better to keep things the way they are. Maybe, we’re better off without each other.”

Pagkatapos kong sabihin iyon ay tumayo na ako at umalis.

May mga plano pa ako sa buhay na gustong makamit. Hindi ko pa nabibigyan ng hustisya ang pagkawala ng pamilya ko kaya pakiramdam ko ay wala pa akong karapatan maging malaya, o maging masaya.

Happiness was never my priority.

“Saan ka galing?” Sinalubong ako ni Debby sa loob ng barracks namin.

“Nagpahangin lang,” sagot ko. Kaagad akong humiga sa couch namin. Ayoko munang manatili roon sa loob ng opisina namin.

“Katatapos ko nga lang mag firing eh, kapagod.” Pagku-kwento niya. “May bagong stocks ng aircraft miniature yung paborito kong aviation merchandise shop. Bibisita ako sa weekends baka gusto mong sumama?”

I closed my eyes and placed my arm above my forehead.

“I’m not sure, kung wala akong gagawin sasama ako. Saan ba?”